Hey, i have been working on my recovery over the past year, made a lot of progress and turned my life around. But since i have still been relapsing relativeley often, i still didnt feel ready to date someone. But as it happens, i met a girl i actually really like. We have a lot in common, i love talking to her and she is interested in me too. We already went on two dates after the first time we met, and we got pretty close. But once it came to having sex, my anxieties kicked in and i lost my erection. She was really understanding about it and we talked about just waiting for a while. I think it is a good thing to wait to have sex, but there is still this part in me that wants to proof that i can do it and i kinda want to know whether or not i am ready to have a normal sex life. I also dont want her to feel like there is anything wrong with her. I try not to stress myself about it, but it is something that keeps creeping into my head, that i have to „perform“, or proof something. Right now i think the best thing would be to actually wait until i am at least 30 days pmo free, i think this would be a goal that is finally in reach for me. But so far i havent talked to her about the fact that i am still in recovery and i am not sure if it would be better to just see what happens. I just had to get this off my chest for now, maybe some of you can give me your take on this issue.