Would I actually go back to being a kid? No. But I wish I could look 20 forever (25 now). I grew up in such a nice loving, innocent family and it’s so harsh to be thrown out in this overpopulated world only to realize all at once that the vast majority of people don’t give a fuck about you and to realize that the same people who raised me (who were once young) are getting older. I think this is why I PMOd for years in the first place (finding out one of life’s harsh truths after another). I was promised this ‘wonderland’ as a kid and was so excited to grow up. It’s incredibly shocking to realize I’ll never have that again. Anyone relate to this? Life used to have that new car smell but it’s all gone now. I know the world owes me nothing and that I’m not ‘special’ like I thought when I was a kid, but I really don’t ask for a lot.