I must say I'm a bit worried.

Now, I've been here before but it still scares the shit out of me. I seem to be unable to do anything at the moment because of these withdrawal symptoms. My anxiety is through the roof, even just laying on my bed I feel like I'm gonna get a panic attack. Then there's the brainfog, I cant focus on anything.. I feel really damn stupid at the moment. My dick feels like it's frozen and like it's gonna fall off.. I have this constant cold burning through my shaft and my hands and feet are cold and my muscles ache. I'm just trying to hold on right now and to do whatever I can not to slip back. I've just been sleeping and watching youtube for the past week or so because I can't focus on anything and I have all these crazy fucking emotions that I don't know how to deal with. It hurts so much I can't even sleep man.

Do any of you feel like when you quit porn you went back to where you left off before you started porn? I feel like I'm a 13 year old boy trapped in a grown man's body, it's extremely confusing. Anyway, I'm very thankful for this forum, it helps me stay focused on what matters.

 

Yeah bless them. I just hope I didn't damage my brain or my dick.

 

Will do, the only way out is through.

Right now it's just small and cold. Towards the end of my porn use my erections got weaker and weaker, eventually I was just jacking off with a semi-chub, without feeling aroused. I never prone masturbated thankfully and I wasn't overly rough with it. Towards the end of sessions my dick would burn and be kinda red but I never tore it or experienced bleeding or anything. I understand that I'll likely always remain vulnerable like an alcoholic remains vulnerable around alcohol and that's fine, I simply must choose not to walk that road because I know where it leads. I just hope I'll be able to have normal sexual relationships in the future.