I need a bit of help..

Guys what's the end goal of NoFap? I can't have sex until marriage for religious reasons, When that is going to happen to me I have no clue.. I have noticed some things since NoFap, I don't sexualise women as much, I've never considered myself to be addicted to porn like that because before I even tried NoFap I had times where I was sexually active (before I took religion seriously) And I would just stop porn and masturbation when I felt like it and then do it when I felt like it, I never felt like it had a huge hold on me, Although it's easily addictive and I get why people become addicted, I once went for several months and then O through normal sex, I've never been one to watch porn for hours on end like I've seen some people say on here I would just find a video and then be done, I've started to question whether I thought I was worse than what I actually was, it's been over 30 days since I've PMO and I can't figure out if it's just my mind playing with me cause it's sort of resetting or if I'm over-reacting? I've never felt like porn has taken over my life although I did sometimes feel a bit guilty when I finished man I dunno.. Kinda in the dark here I know if I knew for sure when I was getting married I wouldn't dare think about P again so I'm prepared for my wife.. Urges were REAL strong tonight I almost relapsed but for some reason I just didn't.. Opinions maybe?

 

I didn't really look at it like that.. I relapsed last night but for some reason I didn't feel worthless or anything if anything i was just like well there's over 30 days down the drain however I realised a lot of PM is to do with mindset and really controlling your emotions, Yeah Naruto is dope man haha

 

Naruto has to be the most motivational anime character I've come across haha

 

True.. Before I took religion seriously and I was sexually active I would have my days where I would ejaculate fast (Still watched porn these times) It wasn't excessive but it was definitely annoying when it happened cause I knew that I should be able to last longer but funny enough when I didn't watch as much porn and just had sex and worked out I found myself lasting longer, Whether they're linked or it's mindset I'm really not sure I'm not saying you will never cum fast that's completely normal but at times I felt real silly cause I knew what I was capable of, One reason why I wanted to stop PMO is so I'm not desensitised when I'm married, I wanna be able to feel turned on just from looking at my wife and not have to go the extra mile.. I noticed recently when I hadn't watched porn for over 30 days and I hugged the girl I'm talking to it turnt me on which is weird cause it's just a hug but hey I was definitely up and ready to go

 

The end goal for me is to stop PMO in general I have seen way too many people even if they feel like M without porn is okay agree that porn really can ruin your brain and rewire it in a way you don't want it to be, Just kinda wanna go back to normal, It's been okay so far.. Almost a week in after my relapse.