I need encouragement and some reminding

Suddenly lately I’ve been hit with the temptation to jump back into P and with spring and summer approaching I’m worried for myself.

Looking back at a couple months ago I had no desires to look at P. Wanted nothing but sex with my wife and real
Attraction to her. Now with a couple of the last few times we have tried to have sex I have either finished too quickly or a time or two I couldn’t kee my erection. In the past I have struggled with PE. But never really had much trouble with erections.

We are also in the process of buying a new house. I have been dealing with basically everything with the bank and my realtor myself. So I have had a lot of stress! Not counting up untill a couple of months ago we were also separated. So I have been going through a lot for awhile. And I’ve been having temptations arise again to look At P and act out not really cuz I’m horny. But more for a escape.

I KNOW if I did, it would be devastating. But have you ever felt so alone and depressed and you know looking at P and getting that high would make you feel better... untill it was over. It would be terrible.

I need encouragement. I don’t want to give in obviously. But being as far as I am and not having some better progress is frustrating, but also mentioned I have been dealing with a lot of life lately and I know I should be super proud of myself for not giving in thus far, but I couldn’t care less.

 

Thanks guys. I know it’s all wrong but I hate that I’ve been tempted by it again and past thoughts of what I have done or looked at are coming back, and their turning me on.

Like is this battle never over really? Temptations will always arise I feel, but past the “normal” level? Everyone struggles with temptations.. but just the thoughts that have came back.

Like let’s just say the dirtiest things I’ve done and some of the worst things I have looked at, thoughts and temptations for them have came back, and I would lieing if I didn’t say it didn’t turn me on, but I’m trying to move past those thoughts and get away from them.

I keep trying to think of temptations as lifting weights... the more repetitions you do and the more weight, the stronger you get. So hopefully the more temptations you overcome, the stronger and better we will get.