I need help... This is driving me crazy...

hello, I'm 18, 2 years ago i started having hocd but never before did i think about men, before my hocd i was fapping for like 4 to 5 times a day, with hocd it went even higher because i needed constant reassurance. Last july a weirdo on discord sented me a trap hentai, i think i got turned on but it was a weird feeling, i did not masturbate though. 1st of september i was returning from my village and i was checking some straight hentai artworks, suddenly my dick started burning and i think it came on its own several times, that started when i was loking at a pic and thought, What if she had a dick? Since then i am having constant problems with traps and futas, the urge to fap to them come and goes, when im normal and im thinking about just normal girls, i am freaking out about what crosses my mind when i think that i like traps and futas. I wholeheartedly mean it when i say i dont want to like traps and futas, i dont and i cant stand it when the urge to fap to them comes, they give me a huge boner and cumming feels good but i dont want them in my life, its like i am a completely different person. Btw before the hocd and the trap futa thing, when i was seeing stuff like that back then i was disgusted and when i am thinking normally, i still am. So do you think this is a porn induced fetish and with NoFap it will go away? I dont want it in my life, not because i'd be embarassed of it but i wouldn't feel good with myself. Is this a porn induced fetish and i can get rid of it? Or... Am i a lost cause? Does nofap work to begin with?

Thanks in advance

P.S.:be honest with me and dont tell me just what i want to hear, no matter how sad and brutal it will be...
(futas means chicks with dicks)
I should also mention that when im not in the days when that happens, when i test myself my dick doesnt even move

 

So you also recommend Nofap, to clarify something, I did have hold its just that now it has turned into this data trap thing, I can tell that I had hold because two years ago when this started my problem were men. My head all day would think of doing stuff with men but it never aroused me, or course I was checking like a very 15 minutes to see if I'll get aroused and I never did. But will nofap really pay off?

 

I hope that you are right. I truly do