Hey all. In my journal I've been talking about how I can fix my self esteem issues, but never actually doing anything to help. I'm making this thread to see what people would suggest to help me with my problem. I need to explain just what my problem is. Okay, here goes... My biggest problem is loving myself for being a guy. I'm not trans, nor do I think about transitioning, it's just that I feel guilty or like I'm a bad person because of it. I've been raised hearing about so many bad things about men and it's caused me to grow up really hating myself for it. That's one of the reasons for my PMO usage and my pregnancy fetish. I just feel like I have to live with the consequences of our male ancestors. I agree, they were stupid and made bad choices that led to issues today, but now I feel like all I am to everyone is just a potential rapist or nothing but a sex machine. These feelings also come from how my family dynamic was. It seemed that my Mom was the bad guy and my Dad the victim because culture states that women are the only smart ones and men were too dumb to operate a blanket. It makes me feel like being a male means nothing more than being a sperm bank that can be thrown out at the earliest opportunity. Of course, I found out that all my life my Dad was twisting the stories to make it seem like he was the victim, but that didn't help. I've often hated myself so much for being male and what it meant to me that if I could I would've put my entire reproductive system in a box and sent it back for an exchange. Not because I felt like I was female but because I wanted to get rid of this feeling of grief and torment associated with it. I want to love myself but it's hard since I don't know what to do. I am making a recovery, but I need some help from everyone. I'll accept answers from anyone who is willing to contribute. Thanks.