I Need Help

Hello,

I’m sorry to hear that you are struggling. Rebooting has its ups and downs, just like life. We see many people experiencing both the ups and downs during the reboot, and though it may be hard to see now, these feelings you are having won’t last forever. It will get better with time, if you are patient and wait.

In the meantime, please seek professional help. I know the idea of calling a helpline might terrify you, but in times of crisis, we often need someone their to put our lives in perspective. So please contact someone who can help and don’t hang up on them. The International Association for Suicide Prevention maintains a list of suicide prevention hotlines for countries all over the world. Also, if you don’t feel up to actually talking to someone on the phone, StopSuicide maintains a list of online instant messaging and chat suicide prevention resources.

You are not alone in this. There are ways to treat depression. Please contact people that can help you. Being depressed often makes it feel like you don’t have any more options. But that is a lie. That is just the depression talking. These feeling you have won’t last forever. We are in this with you, and we will all be cheering for you to get through this!

 

Don't quit, you'll be better!
You seem to be hard to yourself, love yourself, God doesn't make trash, and you are amazing, but maybe you can't see it now. You should try to give you something that makes you happy.
Keep fighting and figuring out why you fall, I know you have determination, and what I recomend you is to recognize how you are, with all your mistakes and "bad" things, accept your feelings (including hot feelings or female attraction) but don't let that feelings control you, embrace them and recognize them and let them flow, and go on leaving what is behind.

 

Don’t think that! Never give up. This relapse is just a bump in the road. I know exactly how you feel. I’ve tried so hard to get rid of this but nothing works. But stay optimistic. What helps is thinking about how good it was when you had that long streak. It was nice right. Strive for it, don’t stop. You mean something and this shit is something you’ll get through. Keep trying hard and have patience. Keep your self and mind busy. The greatest project you’ll ever work on is yourself. So don’t ever quit don’t procrastinate on it just do it. I got through my second day of no porn. I feel confident I can get through it. I almost cried when I relapsed 2 days ago. So I thought no I gotta get through it. Just get back up!