I Need Help

I have been trying to overcome porn addiction for about two years now, hit one-month last year but haven't been able to hit that mark again. I am a college student, and when I am in school/busy, I tend to be focused on school and not porn. I think in 2021 I made significant progress towards this goal. Close to starting of the school year I had made it about a month again, got cocky, and got into a relationship which started the PMO cycle all over again. Throughout the past few months, in the relationship, I was only relapsing once every few weeks. I had made significant progress, then we broke up and I used porn as a stress reliever, I thought a little bit won't hurt. Now going into 2022 I feel like the cycle has started all over again, I can't seem to go without porn, and I feel the physical negative effects porn has on my body.

I have been too afraid to ask for help, I keep this to myself, I am embarrassed of it, I hate the fact that I am so addicted. I also started watching extreme porn(femdom) related, and I really want out, I don't know what to do, I am desperate, and I am posting here searching for some sort of hope. This is the one thing holding me back now, and I feel like no matter how much I do, I am not making progress because I have grown a lot in two years but I have failed to overcome this addiction.

If there is anyone out there who would want to hold me accountable or help me out, I would really appreciate it. I definitely hold a deep shame in my heart because of this, and it is really hard for me to accept that this is not something I will be able to conquer on my own.

Please help

 

I also had PIED during the relationship, which I really need to fix because that made me feel like the shittiest person ever

 

Whats the best place to find that stuff?