I need help

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by deadrole7, Sep 24, 2015.

  1. deadrole7

    deadrole7 Fapstronaut

    I met nofap 3 weeks ago...and I quitted pmo for 2 weeks. I relapsed after that and ruined my 90 days commitment.Today I relapsed once again..and i've been just sitting around and waiting for someone to explain me why I need to go through this much hardship and misery when i'm trying to do a "good" thing for myself when it's so easy to opt for the bad one and just sleep ... I even wonder why i'm breathing anymore.All of the nicest stuff are just too far...it takes a lot of courage to get them.why should I even bother? Isn't it better if I just end everything right now and stop all this pain i'm going through?
    Don't worry, I won't commit suicide, but i'm feeling so lonely...
    I messed around with relapse button on the app but nothing seems to motivate me anymore.
    Life seems so foolish, so pointless..
    I don't know what to do next...
  2. chris4nj

    chris4nj Fapstronaut

    Posting here is a good start.
    If you haven't, read www.mybrainonporn.com. It's a great resource that gets into the brain science of why it feels the way it does.

    It's not that you are a bad person - it's the way our brains have been trained. We did it to ourselves without knowing it.

    Is there someone in your life you could confide in and tell them what you are dealing with? Someone you trust? It was difficult for me to tell someone the first time, and it made a big difference in terms of my not feeling so alone.

    Keep posting. Read other people's posts and comment on them. That also helped me with the loneliness.

    Love to you!
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  3. deadrole7

    deadrole7 Fapstronaut

    Well fyi i'm an extremely introverted person, so telling such a thing even to my closest friend can take ages..its simply out of option.
    Thanks btw, i'll check out the website later(seems it has a problem of some sort right now, dosen't load)
    I'm a little bit better now, but still need more motivation :/

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