I need MAJOR help Stopping Sissy/Femdom Hypnosis

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  1. LesPaul8291

    LesPaul8291 New Fapstronaut

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    I have been into sissy hypnosis for about 3-4 years now. At first, it was extremely "fun" and stimulating. In the beginning, I didn't think I was doing any harm to myself whatsoever. Being "absorbed" into the trance was an easy way to escape life, physical pain, and mental pain (ADHD, depression, Bipolar etc). Over time, day after day, engaging in this sissy/feminization/hypnodomme porn my views on sex, life, selfesteem, confidence, self-love really took a turn for the worst. Several years have gone by, and here's where I am today:

    I feel numb, and "dead" inside. My anxiety is through the roof, and I just can't manage this addiction anymore. I've been in a state of denial for a while now thinking that this stuff couldn't cause any "damage" but how I'm feeling/thinking is showing otherwise. I now have generalized anxiety disorder, and I feel as though I have brain damage as a result of looking at all of this negative, harmful material. One thing that doesn't help is some of the hypno videos/audios have titles such as "Fry your brain" etc. I just feel absolutely defeated by this crap and I don't want to dig any deeper anymore. Mentally, this is my "bottom."

    One thing that has not helped my addiction is that I take 60 mgs of Adderall per day to manage severe ADHD (This is a essential med for me because I take several other psych meds that cause low dopamine; mood stabilizer, antipsychotic, and a benzo. Without an upper, I suffer from severe restlessness, tight muscles, and severe sedation). Prior to looking at sissy hypno, I was doing fine. Now my daily routine consists of being super hyperfocused obbsessed with preparing for a "sissy session" by spending hours at a time downloading videos and being "stimulated" by using software like photoshop to "enhance" the sissy hypno videos to make the session even more intense. Anymore, the orgasm isn't even the best part at all. The chase and preparing for the session is the actual "high." Another thing too is that I'll "edge" for several hours at a time while seeking out novelty from several videos (multiple windows/tabs open) and being stimulated by searching through multiple hypno videos for hours at a time while edging.

    Anyway, I just wanted to give you all a history of my addiction to sissy hypno/femdom. I've been in denial for years, and this is my first time posting to noFAP. I'm posting out of desperation, loneliness, worthlessness, and depression. I used to think that I was depressed or "socially awkward" around women because of my psychiatric diagnoses but I can now honestly say it's all because of the porn addiction.

    So, the question is: How do I undo all of the negative programming that this stuff has placed into my mind? I do have some knowledge of the subconscious mind, visualization, affirmations etc. I've read books such as The Secret, You Can Heal Your Life, The Power Of Your Subconscious Mind, Holographic Universe, Law of Attraction, etc.
    I've also read the AA Big Book & The NA book. I've read these books replacing the word Alcohol or Drugs with Porn/Sex so it's relevant to my addiction.
    I guess I'm looking for an anti-sissy script that I can either use OR make my own script. I just need to be pointed in the right direction. Also, is there any professional hypnosis tracks that deal with this specific issue?
    I know that listening to a hypnosis/affirmations track is not going to be the magic bullet that is going to cure everything overnight but I believe it would help. I've just got to work with it and take action by going to SAA meetings daily etc.

    I do know this much: I believe that whatever thought/belief/or suggestion has done; it can be undone. With God's help, I just need the strength & guidance to help undo all of the negative poison that's been placed into my mind.

    I apologize for the long post, but I am very desperate for help (Sometimes desperation can be a gift). I'm glad that I can share with people like you who may know the pain I'm in and the fear I feel. It feels good to know that I'm not alone, and that there is hope for me.

    Thanks for your help & advice,
     
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  2. There are several/many members who have engaged in the sissy hypno and have experienced similar addictions and effects. Do a search on the forums and you'll find many posts about it and members with the same challenges.

    As you are already aware you have a full blown addiction. You have to stop viewing this stuff immediately. Install porn filtering software on your devices, stay offline, whatever it takes. All
    Addicts suffer from the symptons you describe (to some degree) but the sissy hypno seems to be especially devious and has caused many to question their very gender. It's evil stuff.

    You need to get a good sex addiction therapist and I would urge you to go to SAA meetings. There are a lot of resources on this site that you can use.
     
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  3. ...currently sober from using combination of illegal stimulate(s) and similar porn taste here
    Wasn't in any way easy but can be achieved through daily restriction of the behaviors, one tends to trigger the other for me. As for twelve step programs, though +60 days inpatient rehab broke the cycle it didn't 'cure' me per say but at least put me in a position to experience a normal life again. Ultimately i found the answer is to STOP, accept that it's an uncomfortable process to leave PMO behind and understand the bondage we believe we're experiencing vicariously is in fact reality. Healthy behavior will take time, i stumbled several times once out of rehab but until i found a coupla people in my own real world, not posting online *tho this is at least an expression seeking change* to share my secret, it continued to hold my primary directive. Somehow upon becoming brave *or frustrated* enough to talk about it, the subliminal spell was broken...
    That said, the next step for me seems to be get involved in normal life, eliminate any unaccounted time where i am able to get high and log on. At best it seems that to remain free from these things is to accept it'll be one day at a time i dunno maybe for as long as we acted out this way. This lifestyle didn't just happen overnight and it's unrealistic to think change will be. Finally life without using either is awesome, i wish you well. This is as the expression goes 'a long row to hoe'

    Peace =^,^=
     
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  4. Be very welcome here.

    I was also involved in feminization, sissy hypno stuff, domination, c#ck worship.
    i think I can understand what you are going through. It's hell.
    With Jesus I grew out of this hell, and today I feel the peace and love inside, although, i must watch my steps very carefully.
    And i am still processing the inner pain. But.... step by step......

    Please read my posts and my journal.

    I am here to answer your questions.
    And of course, I will pray for you.
     
  5. Powerous

    Powerous Fapstronaut

    PMO has destroyed our lives for long enough.
    It is time to fight back!, it is time to restore our inner strength!
    It is time to restore our energy and most of all it is time to restore our LIFE!!!
     
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  6. Zntrix

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    I was lowkey involved in a few of these genres, I started to get into it really slowly but stopped before it was too late.
    I really hope the best for you and a good recovery.
     
  7. monkatsu

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    Not sure if it's too late now.. Just saw this post bc I too started a few days ago but now I've decided to stop.
    I saw a few hypnosis reset videos on Youtube. You should take a look! find those done by experienced hypnotists. They intend to clear all the bad suggestions planted (by bad hypnosis) in your subconsciousness.
     
  8. Peacefull indian

    Peacefull indian New Fapstronaut

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    Guys..Guys..Guys....No need to be afraid from sissy hypno.there is very simple 3 steps from come back from this.
    1. Download ' om 108 times' from youtube.
    2.do some yoga and meditation exercise.
    After one month take 3rd step.
    3.before having bath rub salt on your body(avoid all your holes like eyes,ears and ass and penis hole).Mix one table spoon of salt in your bathing water.

    After 2 months you will feel a miracle and you are coming out from sissy hypnosis effect day by day.
    These 3 steps really work.
     

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