I need some advice to safe my relationship

Hi,

well my addiction story starts since i was young. it became a real prblem when i got to university. i started dating this girl and i remember that the first time we tried to have intercourse, my little friend didnt work. I was ashame. because of that and other things i started to work harder in my problems. my gf and i broke up because i didnt want her to be collateral damage of my addiction and during last summer i tried super hard. The longest i went without it was 3 and half weeks and i was already getting boners and i did felt way better. when i came after the summer to universit, i was more confident and i went out again with my girlfriend. at the moment of having sex. it was amazing, i used a condom and i was not soft and i had no issue. we started dating again. however, my life became more stressful and i started relapsing more often. with this i started seeing how it was harder for me to mantain erections and now i cant mantain erections with a condom at all. I have been 16 days without pmo, i almost relapsed a couple times but stopped myself. My big problem is that now it is so much harder for me to cum and i only cum in an specific position, sometimes i dont get hard and i only get hard if i get hard myself and rarely by itself. my erections only last a couple minutes and it is enbarassing. I also feel more sexul to any other woman, i feel i am always chequing out other girls and looking at their asses. i feel extremely anxious about this because i feel it happens a lot. i dont know what to do because i have been 16 days without porn and things have not change as much but got worst. i want to know what you guys think and if you guys have any tips for me because i feel bad for my gf even tho she supports me. I also feel super weird this days, like if i had no libido.

 

thank you so much, i think thatis a great advice, an advice for the fact that i am starting to sexualize my female friends, i hate this cause i feel guilty and tbh i want them as friends but i am starting to really and i say really necause it is all the time to their bod parts