I need some anaphrodisiacs. I'm just too horny, and I don't find it pleasurable

Well, I’m no expert but I know for me that for about 3 days after a relapse I get turned on by girls/women really easily, even in the most inappropriate situations.

so after a relapse I know I’m basically in a tough situation and that my mind will be warped for a few days.

search online for the writings of a guy named “soaring Eagle”, there is also a thread on NoFap website with his writings.

also, I’d recommend checking out the user on here named Modern Milarepa and reading his posts.

both of the above people have written things that alter the perspective, which is what you need: an altered perspective to get sex out of your head, to see sex in a different way, from a different angle

 

well, you said your current desires and fetishes are the “opposite of what you want”. So there is battle going on in your mind with thoughts.

also, you said the desire to dress like a woman first appeared when you started masturbating at age 10. So this shows at least a possible link between masturbation and your fetishes/fantasies.

also, at least from your posts, you didn’t say you have an attraction to men, it’s more so that you want to morph into a woman.

you also never mentioned anything about homosexual desires. So you don’t seem to be gay. And your fetishes you wrote appear to involve women. You were turned on by a woman’s foot near you, not a man’s foot.

I’d say what has happened is you experienced masturbation at too young of an age for your mind to fully understand sex just yet. The same thing has happened to me and to most of us on this website. I found my dads Playboy magazines at the age of 12. That was my first encounter with porn.

i have read a post on NoFap before about a gay man who after abstaining from porn and masturbation for a period of time actually started having desires for sex with women.

so I think the same thing can happen with you. You will probably always have this fetish way deep down inside of you, I think we all have some fetishes we aren’t proud of, myself included. but I do think if you completely, and I mean completely give up all porn and masturbation, that you will reset yourself.

Now as far as HOW to do this, I don’t think there is any magic pill that exists or herb or supplement.

That’s why I recommended the writings above. They have sincerely helped me to get my PMO down to almost zero

 

There's nothing wrong with your libido! Hell I've even asked my previous girlfriends to wear pantyhose! That's freaking awesome and I enjoy lingerie on girls immensely! Especially when your loved one is indulging your desires! You are in your sexual prime! What's wrong is that you relapsed after going so far but nevertheless having fantasies about women is what us men are all about. It's pure biology. You let it out of hand it seems and you have to control your carnal desires. Try mediating, going to the gym, gaming even, try talking with people about whatever you have to send your mind someplace else. I think about sex 99% of the time so I know what you mean but I learn to control my urges mainly by flexing my brain and stopping myself with thoughts that I even verbally say to myself when I am alone! I tend to nag myself and say that I am better than this! I should be better than this and it works! Just be more vicious even with your thoughts! More like a military training regiment just say to yourself you are doing this to elevate above your peers! And you ARE better my friend! Just by the fact you are here and looking for guidance and help means that you are desperately trying to change your course. But forum threads can only help you so much the actual battle is within you - within your brain! Mind over matter! Once you find a girl you can do whatever kinky stuff you want with her if she is willing but don't do it to yourself! Abstain from that! Cross dressing is a bit too much but that just my opinion whatever floats your boat. If you like it go for it just don't excessively think about it. Control your emotions! Nag yourself as if you are both the marine and the army captain in one!

 

Being with another person doesn't necessarily mean you get their problems too. You also get their aura, perseverance, guidance and emotions. Quite honestly given what you said in your previous posts a girlfriend is exactly what will satisfy your urges. Staying single and happy is absolutely alright but tends to open the doors to loneliness in awhile as we are connecting creatures. We need the touch, the smell etc. to satisfy all our senses. Otherwise we turn monk mode and I don't even believe that's good. I mean nothing in excess is good. There must be balance! Hence balance = control! I believe even NoFap in excess is bad if you believe in it religiously. Once you find who to do it WITH is when it gets exciting. Wishing you all the best man!

 

It's completely normal! I am already over 30 and I can tell you that butterflies like the stupid Disney movies we grew up with is utter fantasy. There are ofcourse lucky ones that experience it I even experienced it but this doesn't happen so often in your life nor it means that if it does it will be the right time, the right person. You can even have love that is impossible and end it bitterness and tears. But here's my two cents on the matter:

- yes it does. I moved back to my parents until my new apartment is ready and I have subconscious STOPPAGE if you will to invite a girl over to my house because of them. Hence why I can't even think about doing it. I have subconscious thoughts that if she knows where I live she will leave which there's a high chance of happening so I don't talk about it. You get my point? Living alone is always better because the doors to freedom of your actions are open to you.

- This is something I am battling with all my life. I grew up with my mother taking care of me more than my dad and she taught me the only thing a woman can do - be more sensitive. In this case I started viewing girls like goddesses and their bodies as the most amazing thing that my eyes can see on this world. Which is utterly wrong from a male's perspective. But since my dad didn't taught me anything about male's views about the world I had to do it by myself hence why I am struggling right now in my 30s. I still had amazing sex and connections with girls but it came with more struggle as it would if I had that "education". So ponder on this for yourself. After all I don't know your past.

- It is normal. You are just deprived of a partner that would answer all your desires which in turn makes you anxious. I wouldn't say you are Charlie Harper. He epitomized what a real alpha male would be but we can't ALL be alphas in this world and everyone has to find their place under this blue sky right? So we do what we can as betas, sigmas, omegas nobody cares. You just have to adapt and survive with your thoughts, actions and emotions. That's the reason why I told you what I did in my previous post. Keep at it and evolve!

 

This is a problem for you to take to your doctor. He may refer you to a urologist.
As for anaphrodisiacs, look at these scientific studies... Anaphrodisiac - Wikipedia