Hello, I was in an amazing relationship with this beautiful girl for 3 1/2. We broke up 7 months ago and with that it brought major depression, Weight loss and stopped going to the gym. Porn has always been a part of my life (3rd day of no PMO) the big part is I think escalation has the worst of me. Recently (3 months ago) became a slave for fetishes like cross dressing and gay porn, which would leave me feeling very disgusted and ashamed. For about a month ago I felt really excited to M to gay P and that’s all I would look forward to. And just recently about a couple days ago I began to question my sexuality because it got me excited and lots of arousal and now I get anxious thoughts of meeting up with men on tinder but always stop my self and question. I met this girl 2 weeks ago she’s cute we had S but only lasted a few seconds since I couldn’t stay hard hard. Last night when we were kissing I got 50% hard. It’s like I’m losing and attraction to women but I can meet and go up to any women no problem. I can’t find the desire to have sex with her or any girl even though I know deep down I want to. So please be here for me and respond with your thoughts please. Thank you.