I need some help please.

Discussion in 'Problematic Sexual Behavior' started by Bay, May 9, 2019.

  1. Bay

    Bay Fapstronaut

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    Hello, I was in an amazing relationship with this beautiful girl for 3 1/2. We broke up 7 months ago and with that it brought major depression, Weight loss and stopped going to the gym. Porn has always been a part of my life (3rd day of no PMO) the big part is I think escalation has the worst of me. Recently (3 months ago) became a slave for fetishes like cross dressing and gay porn, which would leave me feeling very disgusted and ashamed. For about a month ago I felt really excited to M to gay P and that’s all I would look forward to. And just recently about a couple days ago I began to question my sexuality because it got me excited and lots of arousal and now I get anxious thoughts of meeting up with men on tinder but always stop my self and question. I met this girl 2 weeks ago she’s cute we had S but only lasted a few seconds since I couldn’t stay hard hard. Last night when we were kissing I got 50% hard. It’s like I’m losing and attraction to women but I can meet and go up to any women no problem. I can’t find the desire to have sex with her or any girl even though I know deep down I want to. So please be here for me and respond with your thoughts please. Thank you.
     
  2. Welcome to the community. You're not alone in this.
    You are describing porn induced hocd. Give yourself the 90 days free from PMO and you will be in a different place. Right now you are worried and your mind is all over the place. Try not to worry, focus on healing and give it some time.
     
  3. Bay

    Bay Fapstronaut

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    Thank you :)
     
  4. DaveTheGreat

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    You're not alone man I once was down his road and now I'm in a relationship with my girlfriend. Keep fighting, I do too!
     
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  5. IGY

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    This is all porn induced @Bay. Just because you are attracted to gay porn, to penises and cross dressing, does not mean you are gay. Over the years, your stimulation from porn has plateaued. So, these novel genres and fetishes seem kinda exciting. If you stop watching porn and stop masturbating, your natural sexual desires will become dominant again. :cool:
     
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  6. Bay

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    Thank you after these 8 days without porn and masturbation have been amazing I look back on it and just shake my head.
     
  7. Souvent08

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    Hey man, your honesty is a great start to this journey. I wish you strength. Make sure you keep your self and your mind busy for when urges come.
     
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