Just waiting on my tracker to reset but im on 1 day currently, i know the things i should do to try and help me quite masturbating and watching porn, but im depressed, lonely, slowly lost all my friends and have no motivation to do things that'll help me change other than sit in front of the tv playing xbox for most of the day. i found that coming to uni has just made me worse and this is when i started losing my friends. i know have a very different perspective and my self doubt has increased like mad. this wasnt me before even when i was masturbating everyday, i still had friends, my self doubt wasnt so much that everytime i want to talk to someone i start crumbling and im sure everyone can see im a nervous wreck at the moment. my way of thinking has changed and i just feel like crying as my life taking such a downhill at the moment. so so so many things on my mind right now but most importantly, my grades are not looking very good right now. i just need to get my old self back, my funny loud and playful self but right now i cant find it. nobody at my uni knows me for who i am because ive hidden in my shell long a enough to give that vibe that i dont talk much. nobody here knows the real me and im sorry for this long text, i just have a lot going on right now and im not in a good place. i just some reasurrance from people that i can do it because i want to. i want to stop masturbating and regain my confidence that i once had.