Hey guys, I'm still on hard mode. To be honest, I've disconnected from my PMO problem a bit, and that's taken me to lower my guard a little. On day 63 porn cravings hit me. Here's what happened: During work I had to look for images that I needed to complete my work. In the image browser I use, there's an option to disable "safe search", which means that triggering material can show up while you're doing your re-asearch. Well, I can't lie to anyone, I disabled it, and with the hope to find triggering stuff. Of course, it was just a matter of minutes, until I got a couple of triggering pictures. Then I went to facebook and typed something that was going to bring me even more triggering stuff. I stared to a couple of pictures for like 3 minutes, and then porn cravings hit me hard as well as a craving to masturbate. I said to myself: Stop it, it's been a long way, and I turned off my laptop. After that I spent like 2 hours in this "escapism mode". Just watching youtube videos one after another. (This has lead me to relapse in the past). The kinds of videos I watched were, to be honest, content that gave me this hope to find something triggering, like stuff people didn't know they were doing in live streaming. After that, I stopped this behavior, went out of the house, and I decided that I needed some time away from the computer, so the next day, I didn't use the laptop. The thing is: I feel like if I had relapsed. Like if I had been lying to my wife again. I've been feeling some kind of chaser effect after that day, and porn cravings have been in the back of my mind. My energy went back to being low, and I haven't been able to be as positive as I was. I didn't reset my counter because I feel it'd be unfair, I didn't PMO, so I created a new counter called "escapism". I know I made poor decisions on day 63. Have I fall into a set back? Would you guys consider this as a relapse? How would you look at what I've done? Your thoughts will be deeply appreciated.