Newbie here. Day zero. I am desperate to regain proper functionality of my penis. I am so discouraged and I am really hoping for this site to give me the tools and support I need. I'm 46 and I can't remember when porn became such a big part of my life. It's not that I spent hours surfing porn, I just counted on a quick fix from porn when my ex-wife wasn't in the mood. And then with divorce, it just became so easy. Always accessible, always wilder and wilder. The allure of porn is everywhere, and just so damn easy to give into. I was recently on anti-depressants for only a few months, and there is no doubt that they reduced sensation for awhile, but I know it is my daily porn habit that has created this PIED. I've been seeing the same woman for 2 years, but we only have sex occasionally, when our schedules line-up. Even with the help of ED meds, I don't reach a hard erection and it doesn't last long. The other day she was over and undressed and went on my bed naked, waiting for me to join her. Those are terrifying moments. Somehow I reached some sort of erection. I'm scared of sex now. I feel so pathetic. Ashamed. The 3 times I was able to reach an orgasm with her over the last 2 years was by thinking of porn and completely straining my body to climax. So pathetic, so embarrassing. Anyways, I'm logging my journey here and will try to make the most out of other peoples experiences. I hope this site showcases the positive side of the internet. I need this site to work.