I need to tell this and i need advises... (sissy hypno and porn in general addicted).

and the issue of cumming that i have is another thing that "blocks" me to talk to girls 'cause... i'm afraid of what could happen if i will have sex with one girl...

 

fuck i was watching a movie but i started fantasizing and i've gone for 3 times veeery fucking close to cum (not for sex scenes, i was just fantasizing 'cause i had already watched the movie)... i was able to resist but these fucking urges drain my energies and now i feel exhausted ...

 

That is not an easy question. Whole books and movies have been written on advice like that. However, you may find her or she may find you (guarantee a sweet girl is needing a guy like you, too!), so just be open to approaching people. This is difficult, I understand, but each day start a little more to allow yourself to approach and be approachable.
We can DM about this too if you need to do so....it is a very LONG conversation.

...so, yes, THAT is your homework assignment...your own words, but put positively: Imagine approaching a girl. Rehearse it but do not over think it. You may get turned down but, know what? She wasn't the "one", so she saved you a bunch of time

Again, change this to a positive: DO NOT BE AFRAID of what will happen if you have sex with a girl, instead, BE ENTHUSIASTIC. Having sex is AWESOME....and having sex with someone you love is called MAKING LOVE and that is even MORE AWESOME than having sex --- because you have sex physically but you make love physically, emotionally, intellectually, and spiritually. It is TOTALLY different and a ZILLION times better.

Do not run from this because of uncertainty. In fact --- here is what is certain --- you, and she, will goof up and mess up and yet, if she is the ONE, you will both figure it out.
It is life.
Life is about growing.
ALLOW IT ---- FOR BOTH OF YOU.

Think about it this way: Somewhere out there, today, at this very moment, is the girl who will change your life, and you hers. Become the best man you can be for her....starting now....and when you meet she will be the girl of your dreams and you BOTH can figure this out together.

START NOW. Each day, allow yourself the room to grow a tiny bit, to open up a tiny bit, to become the best version of yourself.
Do it for you. And if you can't do it for you, do it for her .... she is real and she exists and she is out there wondering who her "ONE" will be. It is you. Prepare yourself.
Grow.
Open up.
Learn.
....and then you will have the capacity to love her fully.

 

@Jamie_K_ thank you... if sometimes i'll meet someone i'll contact you for sure, are u okay with this?

 

Yes, absolutely, as long as you are OK with it, too.
Also, @tryingtochange_ please PLEASE reach out if you need any simple advice on talking to girls. Trust me, girls can be (and are often intentionally) difficult to chat with...but a truly sincere, nice guy will be seen as a treasure by the right kind of girl --- a candidate for "The One"--- so it is worth the effort to build skills on simple conversation and build your own masculine confidence (and that does NOT mean asshole-masculinity, but genuine authentic-masculinity which you have...you just got to start using it a bit).

You seem like a nice, sweet guy. YOU CAN DO THIS...because there is a wonderful girl out there that needs you and you need her.

Two years ago I was totally lost. Now? I have a great relationship that is genuine and loving. I never thought it was possible back then....but it was, and it is real.

You have a destiny to fulfill: Be the best version of you now, each and every day, and life and love will unfold before your eyes. I promise ---- it will if you give your own self a chance.

 

@Jamie_K_ urges are fucking overwhelming now, but i'll resist... thank you really.
can i ask if, in your opinion, fantasizing in my case, is a relapse?

 

I doubt it. You ability to imagine so strongly that you can cum is not a "NoFap relapse" in my opinion, as you are not using porn per se. But, only you can determine, you must begin to shift your thoughts to more constructive daydreams.

 

yeah i'm trying to do that, thank you again u saved my day <3

 

Yayeeeee!!!!! You are a good guy, just keep doing what u know is right. Connect if you wanna chat

 

survived today at university and i think i've managed to hold back the urges!

 

BAMMMM!
See? Day by day be a better you. Today you did that. Keep going

 

in these nights i'm having erotic dreams... dreams where i just search for porn, but these dreams are so fucking real, and when i get up i need some seconds to realize that i've not relapsed... i feel like i'm going to be crazy

 

and a thing that i wanna do is post on nofap reddit and tgandsissy recovery reddit, but i don't know if it's because i wanna other encouragements or just because it's a mechanism of my brain that is telling me "post on reddit so it's more likely that someone that wanna make me relapse links me porn"... i have to post in your opinion? i dont know what to do... urges are fucking overwhelming

 

RELAPSED...

i wanna cry... but urges were fucking too strong...

 

Never give up! I know how hard it is to overcome sissification, I'm really struggling at the moment to build a sense of self confidence and self worth and not mentally put myself below other people. I'm gay so people don't always get it and think I'm just a bottom but it goes way deeper than the sex, it's every part of your being - I can only imagine how much harder it must be overcoming that hypnosis when you're straight.

I know you're struggling with being able to O hands free. Maybe you could think of a mantra you can focus on when you're struggling with fantasy, that's what I do and it helps me, and I seriously have a fantasising problem.