Hi everyone! I hope y’all are doing great and you somehow manage to fight this addiction. I personally gave up a long time ago, I'm 23 and all my conscious teenage life was covered in porn addiction. Whenever i felt sad, happy, tired, energetic I would watch porn. Now that I'm older let me tell you, I feel it's too late. I feel like there's something broken within me because of porn, videochats, edging for hours and posting my nudes on nsfwsubreddit. My sense of responsibility and goal in life is gone. I‘m working on getting my masters degree and I also still live with my parents, no driver’s license and no money. Despite the fact that I work two jobs (for which I get paid little) I still can’t progress in my life. After so many battles, thoughts, prayers to God, meditation, physical exercises I finally understood. I understood that I can’t fight this addiction, and I simply give up. I let cigarettes (another addiction) and porn to ruin me so I can leave this earth to either rot in hell or to levitate on eternal darkness. The only since prayer I have, is that I pray that God takes me in my sleep, I’m too tired and too broken to live
Since you are posting here it is clear that you have not yet given up completely. U are just 23 years old and yet you think you ran out of time. Find a purpose in your life something to move towards to and slowly start working towards it. Also try quitting your bad habits one at a time so you don't get overwhelmed. Also what have you done so far in regards to quitting?
It took me until age 40 to reach rock bottom in this fight. I pray you are getting there sooner than I did. keys to quitting for me were to get completely away from computers and screens where I would act out and getting into a supportive recovery community. I attended Celebrate Recovery meetings at a local church. There are many such groups. There are a lot of resources available to you on this forum and there are many here who will offer a hand of help to you if you ask. God did not create you to just lay down and die. He created you in his image, to become the man he made you to be, to fight for what is good and right. Whenever you are ready to get back in the battle, let me know. We can walk through the dark times together, if you want. God is good, always. Now is the time to turn toward him, embrace his view of who you are, and reject the lies you have believed about yourself. Your New Identity in Christ - the truth about who God says you are, right now https://docs.google.com/document/d/1ezu7SNWg163_0TVbo0iU1QDx92TxYRdA38T5kJkMfJk/edit
I'm so sorry you're passing through this. The way you're feeling breaks my soul. Please, don't feel so! You're barely 23 years old, are so young! What does progress mean to you? Clearly, none of us can beat this alone. None! We need God! When we fight alone, sooner or later we fall again. Also, this is a PROCESS. Achieving sobriety is a process. Healing our inner wounds and broken life is a process. Long term process. We all need to be patient and persistent, EVERY day. Also constant and persistent prayer is needed every day. I understand you were very tired to fight. Let me tell you about me. I'm 20 years older than you, I almost double your age. My problem with M started when I was 12. Very soon I realised I wasn't able to stop it. I again and again promised God to leave it forever but was unsuccessful. Eventually I got desperate. Being a teenager, I wanted to be died (it wasn't the only reason, but was a strong one). I thought my solution was to stop having a body, so I couldn't do anything wrong with it... I wanted to escape from myself! Thank God, I didn't die nor did anything against myself. Praise be Him! At 28 years old I was in a retreat where I learned about and felt the God's love for me regardless what I did. It was wonderful So I wish with all my heart you can feel it too! I wish hope reborn in you. Know YOU AREN'T LOST!! GOD LOVES YOU and He wants heal you! You're His very loved child! Don't let despair and depression overwhelm you more! And know we are here, ready to help you in what we can. God bless!
Stand up brother and walk shoulder to shoulder with us. You are not alone and your addictions are not unique. Man has been tempted by the flesh since the days of Adam and Eve. This temptation is truly buried in our DNA. None of us can beat this addiction on our own but realizing this, truly accepting it as fact, is the first step in rehabilitation. Once you admit that you cannot trust yourself the next step is to put yourself in God's hands. Pray from your heart for His healing grace. Ask God to stand between you and P. Ask that you may hide behind Our Dad while he battles this temptation for you. Ask frequently and as long as it takes for the temptation to pass. Make this a habit and you will find freedom. Sweet, unburdening freedom!
