My goal is to never ever look at porn again. My goal is to be able to say at some point in my life: I haven't fapped or looked at porn in over a year now. But I can't. Here's why I have been trying to do nofap for 1,5 years now. Never got past 30 days. The last 10 relapses were relapses from streak ranging from 10-13 days. It doesn't matter how bad I tell myself to never fap again after a relapse, after 10 days I am beating the meat once again. Why is that? Quitting porn and masturbation is a decision. But it is not like any other decision. If I come to the conclusion my room is filty, i make the decision to clean it tomorrow. I wake up, clean my room, done problem solved I come to the conclusion porn is harming me. Now I have to decide to never use it again. The problem here is that this decision has to last for the rest of your life in order for it to work. It requires you to stay comitted to that decision for years, which is opposed to short term decisions really hard. Every day you are a different person. You feel different, and have a different mindset. So you need to be comitted to the decision of nofap, with every identity you are during all those days. At some point, whether it is 30 days or 10 days in, my identity does not match the criteria of the mindset that tells you quit porn. There will always be that one day (which is 10 for me) that justifies fapping because of the current mindset. I am not my mind. I cannot control it sometimes. Things happen as they happen. Back to day 1 again. I need to get this done, this addiction is mentally killing me.