I really don't know if i can overcome this.

Try to get your mind on other things to keep it from being stuck on P. Find a new hobby, learn a new language, read books. Get out of the house and in some activity with other people, interact and talk. Anything to keep your mind from being silent and dwelling on things you don't need.

 

I have suffered from what you described. What has really helped me the most I think is the mentality to stay sober. When I’m really motivated and focused on the good things in life and stay away from porn, I feel the best. I could write a book on the subject. What’s the longest you’ve gone? I’ve found that once you’re out of the intense withdrawal periods (2-4 weeks)… the urges certainly diminish. They do come back as well, but in those moments, that’s where you have to stay strong. You have to plan your day around this. You have to set a system in place so when you’re feeling weak, it’s not an option. Blockers, staying out of the house, spirituality, finding motivational factors like work, women, creativity, anything it takes to keep you away from it. Reminding yourself constantly of the negative consequences. When we forget about that, we go to the fantasy and just focus on that, that’s where the trouble lies. If the fantasy is diminished and replaced by all the horrible side effects of using porn, then the urges aren’t as intense. It’s hard to intellectualize it all, because when we’re super triggered, we don’t care about all the rational reasons. That’s why we need to set up a system in place when we really want this so during those times of weakness we are saved by past actions. For example, plan your day out, write it all out. Put your phone away when you’re home alone. I’ve disabled my computer before until I was less triggered. I have blockers. I’ve literally texted some people when I was about to look at something and they would call back and then I wouldn’t do it. I’ve planned my weekends so the only time I’m home alone is when I’m going to sleep. Get creative. Get excited. Find what works for you or what resonates. I currently can’t access porn because of all my blockers etc.. I know there are ways around them, but I don’t want to know them. Or I get rid of those if I can. Spirituality is great tool. When you get into a higher state of consciousness the idea of looking at porn feels stupid and ridiculous.

 

Relate to this on a deep level. You can check out my post if you want.
I don’t have the answer for you but I do have a suggestion.
Remove any device that could make you relapse.
That’s honestly the last resort when it gets really bad and you’ve tried everything.

 

You can do it, rooting for ya!

 

I feel the same way, but if we keep eachother in together, we can do this!!!

 

Hey dude I'm no expert, but I like the guy posted earlier I feel less likely to relapse when I have my future vision close in my mind.

When I am thinking about the life I want to live and working on it directly fapping doesn't really seem that interesting.

"How would the person I want to be do what I'm about to do"

Good luck bro there's hope out there, each relapse is not a restart but a lesson.

 

I would be very happy if I had the realisation that u have, when I was 19. I understand you, we made big mistakes in the past but dwelling on the past is ain't worth your time. Even though it's tough, but you must constantly remind yourself that everything is going to be great.
All you need now is loads of patience, slowly but surely thing will change.

For the fact my longest streak is 280. I was stupid enough to spoil recently. So you can trust my words.

 

You want to be healthy and you feel bad that you're not. That's one step - giving up ain't worth it, buddy, especially considering how great you'll feel the more steps you take! Responsibility is difficult for us PMO-addicts, but it's only right that we pursue it, yeah? Somewhere in you is the person who beat PMO - whatever success looks like to you, that person's wearing it, with pride. Remember that - or anything that will motivate you to fight on! We're all on the same boat, here. We gotta stay afloat.