Hi I am a recovering porn addict of 20 years with the last 10 having compulsive behaviors of masturbating from 4x a day to up to 8. Ive gotten myself so deep into this addiction that I turned to analingus porn to feed my urges. Im on day 16 of recovery but the scenes are plastered on my mind. Numerous times in the day I will think of watching one of the scenes and I can't stop my mind from thinking it. The urges get so bad that yesterday I watched a scene (but didnt edge) and I had to force myself to sleep to get rid of the temptation. I've feel like I have given up. I've gotten out of opiate addiction, marijuana addiction, even benzophiades (where i was taking up to 4mg daily). I need help, and I don't know where to turn. I'm lost and confused, and I just want to be normal again. Please help me, thank you.