I really need to know what’s going on

Hello Guys

ill try to keep this short
i’ve been mastrubating to porn for years and only few months ago i realised that iam in some deep shit. was feeling suicidal and lethargic, i dont know exactly when did that started to happen but i felt like this has been going on for a long time but i only came to realise it a couple of months ago. iam one of the most severe extreme cases that ull find on the internet, im only 23 so being that young and having to deal with this problem has got me feeling suicidal.

i first realised that i dont get morning or nocturnal wood, before that it was even difficult for me to sleep because the strong boner would bother me but that didn’t happen for years now.
Now my genitals shrunk, i literally feel no sensation and completely disconnected from my penis, its just there for urination 99% of the time, its never that low hanging flaccid during the day, and balls also shrunk and low hanging most of the time, i feel emotionless i dont care about anything and even if someone close to me dies i probably wouldn’t even shed a tear, i was really feeling like crying before writing this and tried to cry but i just couldn’t feel anything. i dont know what’s happening to me and iam really lost, the longest streak i had was 17 days in the past 32 days, in these 32 days i relapsed 4 times to porn as it seems like i can only get like a 60% erection with porn that is not really hard but absolutely no pleasure in doing it and feeling the guilt when i’m done.


Is a flatline supposed to be like that ? i started this whole nofap because i was in a flatline in the first place. not like most of you who start nofap and then get in a flatline, so i really wanna know if anyone has gone through the same situation of JUST BEING DEAD not just down there but really dead emotionally and sexually.

i really need some advice from people who has gone thro the same thing. i cannot even try to explain how this whole thing feels.

1 Numb lifeless small penis and balls
2- no erections at all unless when viewing porn and its not that hard and would go away as soon as i stop stimulating
3- no energy to do anything at ALL
4- No emotions At all
5- No real human connection to people i cant really relate to them anymore or enjoy my time with people like i used to


PLEASE PLEASE if anyone who has gone thro a similar situation reply and let me know how’d it go for you.

Thankyou