I recently relapsed and got deeper into sissy hypnosis than ever. I need some advice.

i also am addicted to sissy porn, the first step i did to fight it was throw all my toys out, dont keep any of it, if you cant do that than you are not ready to change, other than that i dont really know what to say, its really hard fighting it, especially the urge to shove something up your ass, for me the act is very feminine, and i have always been a very feminine dude, so its a way of expressing myself but sadly it is a very bad way of doing it.

 

my triggers are cucumbers, they always cause me to relapse because they substitute dildos, i try not to go to the store as often so i wont get triggered.

 

how has it piqued your curiosity?, i also have worked out a ton and my body has changed a lot, i also do yoga so i am very flexible.

 

so you mean like new sexual poses and stuff?.

 

yah i had same problem with yoga, more flexibilty made me feel more feminine and i wear yoga pants a lot, so it kind of makes me want to relapse the more feminine stuff i do.

 

yah do not stop working out, its 100% good for you, its just the porn making you associate it with something bad, just like yoga, it is not bad but when you are a porn addict your brain sexualizes it, cold showers are great btw, i take them daily and i absolutely love them, great for urges.

 

I used to watch ton's of sissy stuff too. Even tho I never got to that stage of wearing lingerie or buying a dildo (don't like sex toys in general ) but I did finger my but a few times. I never bought into it, but I did play with the fire, because it turned me on.
What I did figure out eventually was that it all came from a place of self-loathing. And it sounds like that's probably the case for you too. An unconscious part of myself hated me to some degree for not being who I could be. Anger over long time breeds hate, hate breeds resentment, and resentment breeds destruction.
Sissy hypno and in my case porn-addict brainwash hypno IS self-destruction and that part of me who's resentful knows that. You know it's bad, you know it fucks up your life. Imagine that you're so angry at someone that you just want to destroy him and you don't care if you die in the process. So it uses your lust to fuck you up. Not because it's some kind of demon or something, it's literally you being angry at you. Which also causes a lot of stress and you cope with that stress through porn. So it's a perfect vicious cycle.
By the way the people who make those sissy videos are in the deepest circle of those damned people. They know perfectly well that you're not gay or bi, but they also know that you have low self-esteem, just like they do and they want to pull you down with them.

It's good that you made those experiences with sissy porn, because now you've experienced a real manifestation of evil. I mean that technically as well as religiously. Most people never get to see real evil, you did. If you let it it will destroy you to the point where you don't recognize yourself and shut off that last piece of goodness inside of you that believes in you.

Running away from those thoughts and that sissy world doesn't help by the way. You have to understand through and through what it is and why you are attracted to it. Only then will you be able to break the illusion.

 

thats all we can do, struggle and survive, reboot and be free.

 

Can you please explain the definition of sissy hypno for me..?? I mean is this primarily watching gay porn or trans porn....

 

A little bit is enough to get you into that stuff. Also it's maybe only that little bit you're actually conscious of aka peak of the iceberg.

It's impossible for you to get into the mindset of a woman. Only into the mindset of a feminine man. Not the same thing.

That's why it's called evil. It wants to corrupt the good parts of you. The messed up thing is that it's you doing it to yourself. It's kind of like a psychological tumor. You can't cut it away you have to heal it through understanding.

I disagree with that. I mean you shouldn't watch more of that stuff obviously, but cold turkey generally means just shut it away and pretend it doesn't exist. All you do is build up lots of pressure, because parts of you still wants it badly, and at some point you'll snap and relapse. That's what used to happen to me, that's what happens to most people who don't figure out why they still want porn and go cold turkey instead.
But you must find your own way, if you think it'll work, try it out.

Sissy hypnosis is basically an association game. They compile videos where they show hot women and then dicks and women sucking dicks in rapid succession. The audio is usually a domina talking who focuses your attention on the dick and makes you believe that your arousal (which comes from the women) actually comes from the dick. Then they combine the whole thing hot woman and dick by showing you transwomen. Thus slowly warping your sexual desires.
A tiny proportion of the guys who watch that stuff are simply gay/bi but didn't want to admit it, but most guys are turned on by this because they like female domination and because it's evil.

 

For what it's worth I think this is how I ended up wandering into this awful stuff myself. Over the last years, health reasons have pushed me into a socially isolated existence. I haven't had a girlfriend, or even a date, in so long that I think I was susceptible to the kind of circular female fantasizing involved. Problem was, even limited exposure to it started messing with my thought patterns which were left over after PMO sessions. I believe it's intentionally constructed this way, which is troubling to say the least. This stuff is very potent, more so than typical P, since it works at a deeper level of consciousness. Do not think you can casually experiment with it.