I relapse today one time out of my 70 day streak i feel guilty now

[Xtownsend]

I’m 26 years old I went 70 days without porn and masterbation but today I relapse.I jack off to audio porn and porngraphic pictures I also listen to the audio sound of a porn video I didn’t watch it tho so I don’t consider that a relapse but I did see seconds of it because I had to hit play but I did not intentionally watch it I only listen to it . So I don’t consider that a relapse . But I feel ashame for masterbating to audio porn and pics of naked women and then I masterbated 3or 4 times in one day I told myself if I could not hang in there no longer I could masterbate one time out the month until I can quit permanently but I told myself I can only masterbate to my imagination or a Instagram pic I really shouldn’t be masterbating to no pics but I’m trying to be realistic , but instead I end up masterbating to naked pics of women and audio porn 3 or 4x in one day and that happen today. I just need some words of encouragement I’m trying and maybe some advice on what has been working for you . I’m start back up tomorrow with no masterbation

 

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I hope I'm not sounding too fatalistic here, but dude, you have to pick your pain. It's either the pain of reboot or the pain of relapse. The pain of reboot brings health, focus, confidence and joy. The pain of relapse brings guilt and shame, if you let it. My outlook on facing triggers or relapse is "take the hit". Get up and go back for more. Don't shy away or give up. I know you can do it...I mean, 70 days is nothing to sneeze at. You say you're going to start back up tomorrow with no masturbation. Awesome, get up tomorrow morning and say "bring it on", get belligerent, stand your ground.

"Life is pain, anyone telling you different is selling something." - The Princess Bride (sorry, had to end on a light note).