I Relapsed... 60 days!

I was stupid and took adderall last night along with getting kinda fucked up. I resisted the urge, but after starting to fall asleep i suddenly woke up and relapsed, like my body tool over. I did NOT watch porn. I did fantasize some and lookup a fetish that i honestly do not even like anymore, just to get the dopamine rush, and relapsed. If I was sober I know I would not have done so. Its the next day and I'm not on a binge, I realize what led to the problem. I do however feel a loss of confidence and libido, general attraction to women. Other then some occasional sleeep fapping relapses (fapping during light sleep with little control, no fantasy at all), I am 60+ days clean except for last night. I honestly cant believe I did that last night. Any tips on how to recover and continue with my recovery without letting this get in my way? Thanks