jodiefoster88
New Fapstronaut
Hello.
The story of why I decided to start and how I failed is pretty deep, at least to me, so I will try to explain it clearly.
About a year ago I started talking to my ex girlfriend again. I probably should've thought about my decision before doing so, but it is not easy to get close to girls and move on after a relationship where I live. It was going pretty well with her. I would never have thought an ex girlfriend would treat me the way she did. It seemed like she still felt the same way I felt, because I still loved her. The only issue was we spoke mainly on phone with no actual contact
So I told myself and her that I would better myself and begin focusing on school so I could get good grades and eventually go to a univesity close to her so we could actually see each other. Before I get to the main part.. I just want to say the year talking to her was very difficult, but she was very forgiving and so was I. We really seemed to put up with each other and she even said she loved me. About a week ago though things flipped. She ended our streak on snapchat and stopped talking to me. The one girl I cared about. She was the reason I started going to gym, reading, studying, and was the reason I started nofap. So I could gain all the benefits and hopefully become a better person for her and myself. I was getting the benefits too! The energy, the motivation, all of that. But today I couldn't do it. I messaged her and asked if she was mad at me but she said no and when I told her "I don't think so bye" she just ignored. She could tell I was upset but did not care how I felt. She has no will to talk to me at all and it made me depressed. I didn't go to gym like I was supposed too, and instead just relapsed. I was trying to get some dopamine. When I relapse I felt like shit and got even more depressed than I was. I couldn't even keep my eyes off of porn the day she started ignoring me. It hit me that bad!
I need advice with how to deal with this. I want to quit porn and masturbation and get over her the best way I can. I have friends, but we rarely go out and I tend to get lonely incredibly easy. They also think NoFap is stupid so I can't get them on it with me.
If you read all that thank you and I appreciate all of the feedback!
The story of why I decided to start and how I failed is pretty deep, at least to me, so I will try to explain it clearly.
About a year ago I started talking to my ex girlfriend again. I probably should've thought about my decision before doing so, but it is not easy to get close to girls and move on after a relationship where I live. It was going pretty well with her. I would never have thought an ex girlfriend would treat me the way she did. It seemed like she still felt the same way I felt, because I still loved her. The only issue was we spoke mainly on phone with no actual contact
So I told myself and her that I would better myself and begin focusing on school so I could get good grades and eventually go to a univesity close to her so we could actually see each other. Before I get to the main part.. I just want to say the year talking to her was very difficult, but she was very forgiving and so was I. We really seemed to put up with each other and she even said she loved me. About a week ago though things flipped. She ended our streak on snapchat and stopped talking to me. The one girl I cared about. She was the reason I started going to gym, reading, studying, and was the reason I started nofap. So I could gain all the benefits and hopefully become a better person for her and myself. I was getting the benefits too! The energy, the motivation, all of that. But today I couldn't do it. I messaged her and asked if she was mad at me but she said no and when I told her "I don't think so bye" she just ignored. She could tell I was upset but did not care how I felt. She has no will to talk to me at all and it made me depressed. I didn't go to gym like I was supposed too, and instead just relapsed. I was trying to get some dopamine. When I relapse I felt like shit and got even more depressed than I was. I couldn't even keep my eyes off of porn the day she started ignoring me. It hit me that bad!
I need advice with how to deal with this. I want to quit porn and masturbation and get over her the best way I can. I have friends, but we rarely go out and I tend to get lonely incredibly easy. They also think NoFap is stupid so I can't get them on it with me.
If you read all that thank you and I appreciate all of the feedback!