I relapsed

I had a really important job interview and with all the excitment that went with that, i decided like a fool to not continue with my writing affirmations and with that came the loss of... Whatever i was reinforcing in my brain that allows me to except the urges as a part of me. When i am consistant with my writing and i feel my urges at the end of the week i feel like a jar thats barely holding on to this energy that keeps swirling around. It feels like the jar can be opened by one turn of the cap. So im wondering if there is anything else i can do that tighten the lid. Unless all i need to do is keep writing and itl get stronger on its own then yeah. So how would you guys describe the feeling of your urges when your doing a good job at keeping them in place?