I started to think recently "What fulfills you?" And, to be honest, I always wanted to be outgoing, drink alcohol or at least some kind of brewage, smoke cigarettes (I know, it sounds stupid), not necessarily be in a relationship but definitely have lots of outgoing friends, be into new experiences like concerts, clubs, or just chilling with your pals, drinking a beer, smoking a cigarette and watching the sunset over the landscape. I mean, I could do all of this on my own, but I would be like Mr Bean. And I think it's just kind of sad. I'm 24, so I'm not "that young" anymore, but it's still not too late. But the point is, that I've always been awkward, introverted and just anxious, being afraid of every human being out there. I definitely believe that if I'd live such "outgoing life", I'd definitely have less urges to PMO, because "The moments are too great to be ruined by PMOing" I really don't know how to deal with that. I thought about lucid dreaming.