I started talking to a local sissy

If I can speak from the other side of as someone who's battled sissy porn/talking to men as a sissy pretty constantly over my nofap journey, I think the same desire for intimacy, for connection, a desire to be desired, motivate a lot of people who play as sissies too.

The thing that has worked a little for me is reminding myself that sissy crap is actively preventing me from accessing the real intimacy I so crave. It's not easy at all and the deep shame of it all can sometimes make you feel like giving up completely but focussing on the clean and very-sissy-free life you want has been the best method I've found so far. That's alongside blocking all access to chat sites wherever possible because they really are poison.

If there's any sissy you talk to regularly, cut ties and cut them out of your life. Your connection isn't real and they do not need to be in your life. It's impossible to quit this without a clean break.

 

It depends if you are really bisexual or its just porn induced fetish. Times are not easy and loneliness cause a lot of psycho issues for all of us.

Ask yourself rather you would like to find a sexy girl smiling to you in the morning after you wake up or a guy dressing like a girl?

Do you like more sex with women or you want to have sex with men. How do you feel about it? Do you feel ok to admit to your guy friends / family that you have sex with a guy who dress like a girl or you'd rather prefer to keep is as a secret?

If you prefer women then i'd suggest do not cross that line, cut-off contact and start healing process. It would be easier once you wake up from porn fetishes and go back to normal.

If you prefer a guy dressing as a women then... maybe its just you and your rue nature.

 

Some of those things are devil's craft, who created them? why they exist? I don't know...

Most of them you can tell them apart easily, is the ones that you cannot tell apart until they undress the ones that are fucking nightmare material... a complete aberration of mother nature.

Literal trap for straight people... fucks your brain up...

 

I think the only problem you may have is seeing people like that as sex objects, if you want to really develop a relationship with a guy who dresses like a woman or a woman with a penis then go for it I quess, really the only problem is having some kind of "sissy fetish"

 

Hi dude, if you scour these forums, the sissy convo comes up a lot. Seems to be a recurring thing, with various theories behind it. What you've said above can be applicable to any/many fetishes that can result from porn use. Let's face it, for many of us, weird and unusual stuff is...exciting to us! Perhaps that is all there is to it for you? Just craving something a bit unusual and different? I've ended up with all sorts of weird niche fetishes that make sissy stuff look pretty normal (and in the context of LGBTQ movement, sissy stuff is probably growing in stature in tandem).

However, if you have those feelings of guilt or shame when you snap out of the impulses, the likelihood is that it's porn-induced, and maybe not something you truly desire?

The main test is... if you steer away from porn / p-subs like chatting for a while, and you focus your mind on other stuff and goals in your life, do you still crave this Daddy/sissy roleplay stuff? My bet is it would fade away sooner or later.

The other side to it is that (from my experience) we humans to get caught up in the moment. Virtual and online exchanges can really skip huge chunks of conversation, communication and getting to know some 'as a person'. I would be willing to bet that your desire to fulfil wouldn't be as strong if you actually met the person in the flesh...

Don't know if that helps but that's my 2 cents anyhow ;-)

 

For me, my battle and desire to change has become a two-pronged attack. I am battling porn + PMO addiction, but I am also battling fetish addiction. For me, coming to that realisation has helped to understand the nature of the situation. I don't know if that helps?

Aside from that, just keep actively trying to forget about it. If you catch yourself daydreaming or even browsing or chatting, leave the room, get outside for a walk, leave your devices behind you etc etc. It can be hard, but will make a difference

 

Ask close friends and family what they think.

 

Its best to think about the consequences if you do go along with this. If youre having doubts about a decision, it means there's a good chance you'll regret what you did and feel guilt, shame or whatever for it. Its best to let your brain heal and think it out when you have a clear mind. This pandemic has made some of us make decisions we are not proud of.

Just try and think with a clear head and make a decision that has the least amount of consequences and drawbacks.

 

I'd have a restraining order put on it.

 

Really? I mean really do we need to find advice about this?
Come on, buddy! What happen with these people OMG! Buddy, I mean, if you are so curious and so horny go f*ck the damn guy, sissy, whatever it is. Do what you want.

Then, if you enjoy it: Congratulations! You are gay! Deal with it.
If you dont enjoy it (and you actually have a slight idea that this may be tha case, because you feel ashamed after you talk with this dudes) If you dont enjoy it and you feel like crap after, then: Congratulations! You are an idiot! Deal with it. You have a severe porn problem and you are a full blown addict that needs to recover for sure. Now you know it, the sissy knows it, and everybody knows it for sure, no doubts.

Please, is your life: deal with it.

 

I think it's something you want to walk away from with no longterm damage .

I dont get the itch to act out but ive watched it more ts .

The more you watch the more you warp your mind its new its stimulating and were only human

For me i believe it will go away without having any impact on my life .

And i really dont think i would even be able in reality .

I watch ts porn about 8 years ago for about 2 weeks . It was first a very feminine looking female then she began penetrating and girl.. and i started watching more it was a shock and disgust at the same time but my brain didnt really know how to process it .

I eventually came to the conclusion im not watching anymore and its a dude... believe it or not i actually thought trans were actually biological women so i fell into a trap . Your mind can make some shit up. Basically i.stopped watching it and didnt watch it for 8 years over the whole 9 years not once did i have any desire to.watch it again had no unresolved sexual frustration it was dead and done . About 8 years later id begun to get pretty bored with porn id watched pretty much everything and id exhausted all girls on cam .

Basically need to take a break.

But stumbled on ts porn and.started watching it.been watch cam.girls.on and off ts on and off for about month

It's simple. As soon as i stop.watching it ill have zero fucks to give about it . And if i watch it again after a long break it won't be met with horniness mostly disgust. The more porn you watch the leas shock factor disgust it has.

With porn you deplete your dopamine levels things become boring less stimulating before you know it ypur in a very understimulated state and various things that would have otherwise been more disgust are a source of stimulation

I think as males.and even females we are capable of reaching.a point we dont give a fuck.. but porn os the trigger and transwomen are the trap. Doesn't mean your destined for it. It means your in a mental state and certain parameters are met that you see enough female are lacking intamcy amd have a high enough sex drive. Long peruods of time im.isolation.and.the trap.that is.transwomen and porn means you got.easy access yo new material that is pushing your boundaries hence disgust.

Heres your options

Bang one and potentially regret it.and be forever changed potentially in a way you dont want or stop and de escalate. You will still be lacking that intamcy so the desire to not stop will be present until it levels out.

Humans.are complex emotional.beings we need to feel.good we need to.feel.a dopamime.rush and theres no.better way than sex and relationships so if your under the trap your mind.will still.consider going.to.the source of dopamine wether its fucked or not.

The parameters have been met and your in the trap.

When i stopped watch ts porn 8 years ago.after watching for a week or two and porn my dopamine levels normalised i deescalated and had no desire it was as though it never existed.

 

I wouldn't turn down the possibility of doing something like that, if they were as feminine as you describe them. Are you feeling disgusted because of the disparity between the things you genuinely want and the things you only want when you're horny? I know that feeling - a total lack of identity and control.

 

I wouldn’t do it if you never had any inclination in doing so before you got into the throws of porn addiction. Go on my profile and read what i posted about my experience with a ts. In short it was a terrible mistake. To this day I am still trying to get over it. Im 20 years old and feel my life has been hijacked by this addiction that really went off the rails the last 2 years for me. It messed up so many potential positive things in my life i couldve had sooner but have been cut short by this fucked up shit. I honestly feel like im dying inside. Im able to put on the mask excuse the pun in public and hide very well that this ever happened and how i truly feel. I was molested when i was a young kid and i had repressed those memories up until my mid teens when social media and the internet started becoming more prevalent in my life and i got hooked on porn. I was always into women and the porn id get off to was always straight, i never thought twice. But the more i became addicted and the more i started abusing substances the more my addiction escalated to where i was watching porn all the time. And just before i turned 19 is when i crossed that line into ts porn. It was just more dopamine rush, a higher fix. I was still a virgin at this point until i stumbled upon an escort website and thats when things took a dark turn man. I lost my virginity to an escort dude. And then i seen a couple more after, none were ideal or great experiences for the most part. These were dirty women man. Eventually, while still watching being engulfed in porn addiction, i went and seen a ts escort which was one of the options on the site for ts. The whole time leading up to it i was so conflicted within whether or not i should go through with it realizing this could all be just my mind playing tricks from the addiction. I knew i would regret it. But i still went and no penetration was involved on both sides and i didnt give any head ill just say that and after it felt like i remembered how i felt after i had been molested as a kid. I did something that was not me. But i was still involved. This was back in late September of last year 2020. Till now im struggling with very bad thoughts on no longer wanting to live anymore. I still havent been able to move on from the shame regret and guilt which i knew id have. Jesus man. I wonder how things wouldve turned out if i didnt have access to the internet. Its like always having crack and a pipe next to a fiend wherever he is, of course hes gonna use. Anyway, i guess id say to you dont do it if you never wouldve even thought of doing so before you ever got addicted to pmo. Sorry for the drawn out post thanks to anyone who read.