i survived

Being underway for months in the navy has its benefits, with no access to the internet except selected sites there is not way to look at p without getting it from other people, yesterday on my birthday we pulled into port for a few hours, I had much temptation to look up as much p as I possible could in that time but... I didn't and thank God I didn't. You see I now have a better view on everything, I have been struggling badly with motivation, brain fog, and I could not do my job or even learn it because of it, but I have been free for 19 days now and the improvement is unimaginable, you see seeing how much I have improved in my job and quality of life I just cannot go back to pmo now, and the thing is I did not even look at p before my reboot, m was enough on its own to destroy me. So yah that is what keeps me strong I cant go back to how I was before, I hated life and I wanted to quit the navy every day but now I feel I can handle it now, I refuse to go back into that hole called pmo. So I invite you while rebooting to keep a journal and really look at your life, your mood, everything, and then when you realize how much better your life is without it, than decide if relapsing is worth it, simply knowing something is bad for you is one thing, but realizing how much better your life would be without it is a very different thing.

 

Your English and way of expressing yourself has definitely improved. Proud to see this growth man. You are much more articulate now. Keep growing brother.

 

Thanks man I did not realize the changes, I guess as we grow those type of things just improve naturally ^~^, keep growing yourself friend.