My life is destroyed. I was 12 when i start mastrubation. When straight porn become boring i accidentally start transwoman porn(at age 16, pussy was boring, anal was cool), i had inner conflict every day and every week. It's makes me HOCD. At age 20 i saw some gay porn, lower part like but i had nausea(Still rarely watching). At age 22(Because i grew up in very religion family) i had first woman, she was prostitute. I was very nervous, Scaried, overthinked and i failed, my P don't erect(she play porn, but result zero also. it was more psychological and it's frequent for first time, i readed, but I'm destroyed) now i have other anxiety. I feel i don't like pussy and woman anymore. I imagine girls, but my erection it's not hard, when i see pussy, it's makes me unerection. And what is funny, I am straight, I'm not bi or gay in real life, I never had any feeling emotional or sexual on guys, I always had with womans. Now i don't know what i do. My life is totally sh"t. I lost much money for prostiute, I am shamed because i failed. I failed for my life, I failed for my dreams because always wanted wife and kids. I don't like shamales in real i tried experience and makes me bad. I can't eat and i Can't sleep. My life was always pain(Bullied in school, problem with family) but i had always cure hope meet to dream girl. It was last. Sorry for my bad english, I'm from Poland. any advice will help me.