I think I figured it out

I am only writing this to share what I have learned to help as many as I can. Many of you or most of you are doing nofap to fix a sexual problem, and it’s 90% PIED. DE or PE is secondary imo. I have started nofap 15 months ago. I am married man and a father to a beautiful girl. I had many ups and downs during the last year. Sometimes 2 weeks from abstinence could be enough for me to perform with my wife, and my last streak “90 days” wasn’t enough! I had a lot of long streaks. I will list them as I remember:

40 days > PIED GONE
relapse and binge, PIED back
14 days> PIED GONE
Relapse and binge, PIED back
6 days off, 1 day pmo for about one month, and PIED wasn’t there. I was happy. I could perform and at the same time I was pmoing once or twice weekly. That didnt last long though. After 30 days or so the PIED came back.

50 days > PIED gone
relapse and binge

60 days > PIED still there
Relapsed and binge and almost gave up and was actually planning penile injections.

i then left my wife for 3 months to get my masters degree. Was full of pmo. when I got back to her I had no PIED, but couldn’t ejaculate. I was really confused. Why do I get an erection after 3 months of heavy pmo, and not when I abstain for 60 days??? The next day PIED came back, then I started my last and longest streak. 90 days! A lot of fasting, daily heavy lifting. Not looking at anything sexual, rewiring softly with my wife. Boom, PIED still there. Suicidal thoughts every day. Back to pmo. I then did a lot of research to try to finally fix this issue. I was so depressed and angry at the same time. I started eating like 500 calories a day!! I came cross an anti depressant called Wellbutrin, and the special thing about it is that it actually raises libido by raising dopamine. I started taking it daily for about 3 weeks combined with pmo every now and then. I then talked to my wife about how anxious and stressed I am, and that I do have a performance anxiety (in my mind it was a perfomance anxiety due to PIED). The day after I started that conversation, which is today. I fucking became a sex machine. After almost 110 days struggling with PIED, I managed to beat it, again!! Now I really don’t know if that was just performance anxiety all the time, or was it because of the medicine that I started taking three weeks ago. 90 days nofap didn’t work, but a small conversation, and a good anti depressant worked. I am not sure if it’s the medicine or the conversation that fixed it, but it’s definitely not PIED. Don’t get me wrong. I still believe that P is worse than drugs, and it is the filthiest thing that a man can do. I would live to hear your comments about this little story. You could also ask me anything as I am sure I missed a lot of details.