I think I have a crush on a girl, but it's...not sexual? I don't understand?

Okay, a few days ago I relapsed. But since then, I haven't. And I won't relapse again.

Surprisingly, the urges for my fetish aren't that strong anymore (see this link for more info on me - http://www.nofap.com/forum/index.ph...-my-journal-x-post-yourbrainrebalanced.45908/).

See this link for a more updated version though - (http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=31055.0)

Since uni started 2 weeks ago (first year), I've seen a lot of hot girls. But there's one in my class who is attractive (not smoking hot, but has a cute smile rather than the typical pout).

I don't know her (although she sat next to me in a lecture, I didn't ask her her name as I was too nervous) but I really want to know her. I get butterflies whenever I see her, tingly...but I don't have any fantasies of her (I don't want her to perform my fetish on me, or have sex with me).

Perhaps I'm in a flatline?

How do I have a crush on a girl that I don't even fantasize sexually about? All I want to do is talk to her...get to know her. What does this mean?