I think Im a porn addict?

For the past 5 years at least my porn use and my fantasies have escalated. I now sometimes watch bondage porn not the rape type I still hate that. I also tonight ended up watching gay porn and masturbating to it. Ive tried it out before but I never found it appealing but tonight it didnt matter to me I thought it was alright. Previous to that ive been a straight guy all my life. Im so god damn confused now. I dont know If im bisexual or straight or if its just my brain trying to seek a new high. Im really down right now ive never felt so shitty about myself. It seems my sexual needs keep escalating. I like anal not gonna lie but its making me so worried that since I like that itll eventually turn me into a sissy hypno guy and i swear to god if I end up doing that i dont know what ill do to myself. Its also depressing the fuck out of me because I want to join military more than anything on this planet and the guys in the military are masculine guys and I feel like a bitch because of all of this and feel like I dont deserve to be next to those guys plus when I get a girlfriend she isnt going to want someone like me a guy who likes it in the ass and cant control himself. Bottom line ive tried to stop watching porn multiple times but never can stop. I try to stop doing anal stuff because i think its probably part of my addiction but never can. I feel like shit after doing that especially. I have no hope right now. If I really try to abstain from masturbating and porn will these urges go away?