I think NoFap will help me

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by TheCookie, Jun 14, 2019.

  1. TheCookie

    TheCookie New Fapstronaut

    Hi everybody,

    First of all, english is not my first language so excuse me for my mistakes. And secondly... Here is why I'm writing, I would be very grateful if you consider to read this.
    I masturbate since I was 5 or 6 years old, but I didn't know what I was doing till high school. So, I discovered porn as a teenager, I don't remember exactly when, but decided to stop when I realized it was destroying me. It was very difficult and relapsed many times over the years (although it shames me, sometimes I still relapse nowadays. Very rarely, but it happens). I had so much free time on my hands that I started to read fanfiction and discovered a whole new world of porn. At the moment I felt great because it wasn't porn per se, and in my opinion so much better than the conventional porn... Obviously it is still porn, but writen, so I didn't feel bad about it. Until, again, I realized it was worse for me not because of the porn only, but also because of the people I met, some of them even became friends of mine, and they were pulling me constantly to the porn.
    It reached the point of only achieve orgasm thinking on situations I've read on the fanfictions so I decided to stop. Reading them was addictive, a real addiction. I got bored of it eventually and, slowly, I distancied myself from it. But I still read them because yeah, an addiction. I couldn't think of anything that wasn't fanfictions, the dirtier the better. Fortunately everything changed when I met my actual boyfriend, and I must add that this is my first real experience with a healthy relationship.
    Without noticing I stopped reading/watching porn alltogether and developed healthy hobbies and projects, and I don't have the need to read/watch it again. Most of the time, and here comes the problem: every time I'm at it with my boyfriend, I only climax thinking about porn. And I'm dicovering aspects of my sexuality that are not healthy or good for me. I'm madly in love my boyfriend, is the best man I've met and I know he doesn't deserve this when we are together. I know there is hope because more and more my fantasies during sex are changing to the better, I'm getting tired of thinking about porn and I feel bad about it.
    I discovered NoFap thanks to a newspaper and while reading into the forum I realized I'm not the only one with these kind of problems with porn, I'm so relieved... I want to get rid of it for good this time and have a fulfilling sexual relationship with my partner, and to be happy and proud of myself to overcome this problem as many of you have done. And I think NoFap will help me to reach this.
    So... Thank you for read till the end, and wish me luck.
  2. I have not experienced this so I don't know if I can help but it sounds like you are healing and I am happy that you have found someone you love. Don't give up and stay focused. If you haven't come clean to him about it, that might help the healing process. In any event, I do wish you luck and Godspeed!
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  3. Hello and welcome! :)

    We are glad to have you as a part of our community. Here are some quick links to get you started.

    - You can find the forum usage guide here
    - Here is we’re you will find a glossary of terms often used in the nofap community. Glossary
    - You can also find a guide to the basics of rebooting here
    - If you wish to keep a journal of your progress you can do so in the appropriate section found here

    There are plenty of wonderful, friendly and knowledgeable people here to help you along on your journey to a life free of PMO. I wish you nothing but the best!
  4. Hey & Welcome to NoFap Community! :)

    You are in the right place for recovery here. We are so glad to have you with us to beat this addiction together.

    You can go read some Success Stories in the "Success Stories" section to learn more about the benefits of NoFap , get useful tips and ideas to help you in the reboot.

    If you have any question about rebooting, you can ask it in the "Rebooting" section.

    And I would recommend you to make your own journal in the "Reboot logs" corresponding to your gender & age to track your everyday progress.
    You can also join challenges in the "Events & Challenges" section, to keep yourself motivated and focused.

    You may start by checking the links below:
    Learn more about Rebooting.
    Forum Usage Guide.
    List of Rebooting Ressources.
    Glossary of terms used in NoFap community.

    Best of luck to you in your journey!

    -The Winner
  5. Always be positive

    Always be positive Fapstronaut


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