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I thought I was stronger

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Shadeforeskinner, Apr 7, 2016.

  1. Apr 7, 2016 #1
    Shadeforeskinner

    Shadeforeskinner Guest

    Yes, I thought I was stronger than this piece of lcd screen in front of me displaying pornography. I thought I would go porn free easily, with no effort, just avoiding touching my dick and it would be ok.
    No, I was totally wrong. I've been doing this shit since I was 14. Nowadays I'm 21. A total of 7 years PMOing almost daily.

    One year ago I tried to have sex for the first time, and I failed, of course. I thought I was nervous and that's ok. Then I tried again, failed again. I noticed I couldn't feel anything from a blowjob, and it really scared me. All I wanted was my 5 xvideos tabs opened in front of me.

    After some research on the web, I found this NoFap thing and, as I said, I thought I was stronger and would solve my problem easily in 3 months... failed again, and again up to this exactly moment. My record was around 30 days. Failed to stop PMO, and as a consequence failed again with sex so many times, always telling some excuse to my partners. Well, in a nutshell, I've been trying to have sex for more than 1 year, and I successfully failed at all times. PIED is a slogan in my life.

    After so many tries, I decided to sign up here and see this text as my last hope. I think that exposing my situation is a good way to feel motivated and commited. I will try as hard as I can to report my journey towards a porn free life, a life with real things instead of artificial pixels in front of me.

    Shade.
     
    Shadeforeskinner, Apr 7, 2016
    Shadeforeskinner, Apr 7, 2016
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  2. Apr 7, 2016 #2
    kk76

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    Lots in what you say I relate to. I thought the lack of genital sensation meant I was a freak, perhaps if I got circumsized then I could feel more. I thought the issue was physical and not that years of MO and PMO had taken away my ability to feel, both in life and in the bedroom.

    You have learned lots of things by slipping and long term that's a blessing and you will look back on this as something that you struggled with but overcome but you need the bad and the good times.
     
    kk76, Apr 7, 2016
    kk76, Apr 7, 2016
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