I love him and trusted him with my heart for almost 18 years, I’m tired of feeling rejected and unworthy. When All his sexual energy was directly towards “fake” sex and intemency, I was left alone. I gave him 6 beautiful babies, and Always got back to “pre-baby body”, by dieting and working out hard. I needed Love, sex and intimacy, but he was too wrapped up in his Pretend world to even realize I had needs. I thought things were getting better after he confessed March 2017, until more lies surfaced throughout this entire year. I think we are done and it sucks. We have 6 babies and a business together, so many ties. We are sleeping apart tonight. We have had some council, but I don’t feel like it’s been that helpful. I have asked him to be a part of this forum and follow through with our plan for journaling. I’m not sure what else to do?? I wanna throw up, that I’ve wasted so much of my time, heart, youth, and body for someone that doesn’t give 2 shits about me.