Hello. I’ve been addicted to PMO since I was about 15. I got married at 24 and I’m almost 27. I thought I could overcome this myself for so long. Especially since I’m a Christian. (Christians think they’re invincible.) I also thought getting married would solve my issue. Everybody knows you have sex non stop when you get married. [sarcasm] My wife and I have had a good sex life and it continued getting better through the years, but for some reason I still couldn’t shake PMO. When everything changed is when I finally came to the realization via some ted talks and conversations that PMO was affecting my heart and brain. I have been lying to myself for so long that it doesn’t actually hurt anyone. But it does. It was hurting my heart, my brain, my spirit, and my marriage. I finally got over the idea of “stop cause it’s a sin”, and I adopted the idea “stop cause you’re hurting yourself nd those you love!” I decided to stop 7 days ago and joined nofap. 5 days ago I decided to put it all out there and tell my wife who I’ve been hiding this secret from through our entire marriage. I was so scared that she’d view me as a pig and disgusting, or worse view herself as not enough or unloved. When I told her, I remembered the reason I married her. She didn’t degrade me or chastise me. She accepted me, loved me, affirmed me, and thanked me for being open with her. She showed me love in a way that I thought only God could. Loving something despite its flaws. This love has strengthened me to continue the fight for no PMO. I’ve gone 7 days now and don’t even have urges! So id like to encourage you readers. If you are using PMO, in a relationship, and love your partner dearly, be vulnerable. If you’re single, tell your friends or pastors, or parents. Let the ones you love and trust help you. My marriage is stronger now than it has ever been. I believe some of it has to do with me not fapping; but I believe that more than anything it is because for the first time in our marriage, I was completely open and vulnerable with my wife.