I tried something after watching the video on PIED...this a relapse or not?

I am of course referring to this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EHHyt6z0osA

But onto the point. Towards the end of the video, he talks about how a test which can be done to determine if your ED is porn induced or biological. Which...and this is just what I assumed. Involved masturbating while fantasising/looking at porn, and then masturbate without any fantasy or porn to stimulate you. I assume if you can't do the latter, but can do the former, this is PIED. As a person with this on my mind all the time, I decided to try this out.

I at first attempted to stimulate my penis but while blanking my mind. My mind is now in a better state to do this, so this was fairly easy, but I failed to get an erection all that much. Felt a little tingle but that's about it.

Then I tried to imagine a sexual situation (at least, it was sexually stimulating to me, no it wasn't a porn memory, I was making it up) briefly in my head, not too detailed, but enough to give a reaction. My penis started to become erect, but I stopped after I realised this before I got anywhere near to orgasming. My penis was considerably longer (not fully erect, just the early stages and still soft) than it has been in recent months. This only took around 10 seconds to get to this stage via the porn fantasy.

While my fears about it being biological have calmed, I can't be sure if this counts as a relapse. I didn't get too sexually stimulated, and I only fantasised for a brief moment before I stopped the thoughts. I wasn't doing this to cheat on my PMO abstinence, but I just wanted a piece of mind, which I now have.

So does this ruin my abstinence despite not really stimulating my brain all that much? I don't intend to do it again and my brain is trying to make sure I don't look at any porn (I avert my eyes if I do, or am very careful when looking at new pages. This is regardless of how much I want to look at it).

Just as I was typing this...I began to get some mild pain around my groin. This happened in the past when I masturbated (sometimes, and the pain was worse when it did happen) in the months leading up to this abstinence. God...that will be the last time I rub my cock most likely >.<

 

I thought so too. I didn't give into temptation, was just curious. I didn't lose control or anything, which says something about my willpower now.

I noticed something about my porn obsessed thoughts too...it never seems to be about looking at porn I have already seen, but rather about new porn and all that stuff. It's not really about how extreme it is, rather if it's new. Just something that interested me.

I am seeing some signs that I may need to take a break from my computer for a long while, but that may not be for a little while since right now my life is too much of a mess to do anything else with. No social outlets in my area and having social isolation (I have been like this for almost an entire decade, and it's not so much about not having friends, it's about not having any real close friends if you know what I mean) makes this more challenging. I am proud I have been able to avoid looking at any porn (I have been on pages with it, but I never directly look at it, so I can't really see what it is, hence no arousal) for 7 days straight.

 

Thanks I appreciate the support.

Nah, I am literally just not interested in jerking off. The kind of porn I look at maybe...but a part of me thankfully won't let me consume it right now. Mainly since I used to have poor willpower due to having mental health issues (still do, social isolation and depression sucks) that were related to something in my diet (Gluten seems to be bad for me, feel better since I removed it). But now my willpower has gotten better so I can actually go through with this.

I do want to interact with girls in real life. But there aren't really many around where I am. Might be years before I even enter a romantic relationship with anyone. That's not my main priority in life, but some social experience with females will be very useful.