I used to have friends, girlfriends and i did better before NoFap. Why is NoFap doing this to me?

I had friends, even amazing looking girlfriends before i got into NoFap and Semen retention. NoFap and SR made me more confident, less anxious, more fearless. It simply made me aloof apathetic strong confident alpha leader like person but life wasn't the same anymore man. I wasn't dependent on anyone anymore and i was doing ok but even my parents noticed i am not the same person anymore. I used to be sweet good looking innocent somewhat sensitive guy who felt emotions and everything. I do agree NoFap and SR made me more magnetic and gave me attraction from both female and men but life isn't the same anymore. I have no idea why i joined NoFap in the first place, i guess it's because i read it helps with social anxiety and making your hair better. It truly did yes but i somehow miss my old self man life feels more boring now even though i became more manly. I don't see this as a flatline. I've been a NoFap member for over 3 years and i heal super fast. I never had problems with erectile dysfunction or anything like that. I even hit 500+ days myself and imagine the benefits i got. I've written over 50 threads at least about maaany different topics in Reddit. I always had more sexual energy than most people i've met ( my dad has scorpion tattoo and it's one of the strongest sexual energy symbolism ) my family has always been super sexual anyways but somehow i am the only one who decided to quit masturbating / sex. Although i had sex while on NoFap many times but eventually i went to karezza ( non ejaculatory orgasm ) and i had sex 3 times with a woman 2-3 months ago. But still it's not the same anymore.. even doctors said i am more apathetic to human emotions. I do feel but i am way more confident, aloof, stronger, self dependent etc while on NoFap, even made me more alpha like person. I miss my old self man. I do agree NoFap also made me smarter and more focused on my goals. I even passed my exams on my first try and i was considered that quiet smart kid. Before NoFap i was somewhat rebellious and i was more of a class clown and lazy student but i had friends and i was like most kids you see on groups. NoFap and SR made me more successful but made me empty too. I have tried vitamins, veganism, exercising, socializing, many things but it didn't make any difference.
Check my other 2 posts i wrote so you might understand better?

EDIT: Did i mention i dated 2 most beautiful girls and many other beautiful and cute chicks ( different time though ) since i was a kid to the point i turned 18. At 18 to 20 i was got into bad group of friends and i focused on weed smoking which ruined me but i haven't touched drugs since then. I am more wiser and smarter when it comes to choosing friends too. Anyways NoFap and SR happened to me at age 19 / 20 and i only had 1 girlfriend at age 21 and half and it wasn't the same either like my other relationships, it was chaotic and even my ex told me i am somewhat cold when it comes to feelings? I used to feel tons of emotions ALL the time when i was masturbating normally. But i agree when it comes to Porn, porn is just evil and drains you so i am talking about normal masturbation and ejaculation even sex.

 

I am not here to encourage others to do like i do. I have actually helped hundreds maybe thousands of people in Reddit many many times. We are all different mate, some people have sex daily and ejaculate and feel even better than most people on NoFap 500+ days.

Look at this guy, i relate to him a lot. Even a guy told me 2 days ago that i might be more powerful than others ( which i agree, i got many benefits in less than a month and some got those benefits after 90+ days ). https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...efore-i-started-nofap-is-nofap-for-me.182055/

Also i don't really think masturbating is a bad habit, i mean is it really? Overdoing might be yes. Is sex a bad habit? I think porn is the only bad habit here to be honest which i also said it's evil.

Also i literally wrote that NoFap did amazing things to me making me more confident alpha like person, even more successful when it comes to school. But hear me out man are you anti intellect or something when you have to disagree with everything i wrote here?

Also i'm pretty sure i have wrote over 50+ threads maybe even 100+ threads since i have like 3 accounts in Reddit. I have helped a lot of men and women when it comes to NoFap, PMO and semen retention. But as an expert this is my experience i wanna share. Also there are many posts like this who say they are opposite of NoFap. Not everyone needs NoFap or SR mate. I have myself gone through 500+ days of NoFap and relapsed once and i went again 200+ days. I have gone through many stages of my life and NoFap and SR has been life transforming to me yes but i am not against it. I just wanna know the reason why am i like this when it comes to normal masturbation / sex and why i did somewhat better before i joined NoFap / SR? Read my post again and grow some empathy.