I wanna be a s*x slave. TW: Arousing things (Revised repost)

Discussion in 'Problematic Sexual Behavior' started by RadiantFalcon382, Jan 4, 2022.

  1. RadiantFalcon382

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    I know I just made a thread, but this was another issue of mine that was not related to the first thread. So although that I am a cis guy and I find myself attracted to girls, I still get horny whenever I wear a skirt or panties wanting to be at the sexual disposal of a man. I want a girlfriend yet I want to give a blowjob or have a bunch of muscular men ejaculate onto me. I know that this will never happen but its something that I try to keep in the dark because it sort of scares me (also into femdom too). I don't know what to do!
     
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  2. g2stop

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    Sounds like you have been brainwashed by porn. Stay off porn and you will get better
     
  3. RadiantFalcon382

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    I’m hoping that solves things. Funny enough, I never watched irl porn, only animated stuff. It’s just as damaging as irl porn, yet no one talks about it.
     
  4. RadiantFalcon382

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    Im kinda hoping that quitting masturbation or any other sexual act makes my wish for a dominant girlfriend to go away. Because from what I’ve read, that’s a bad thing to wish for.
     
  5. Beekind

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    You need to stop all sexual activities including fantasy for a while and then see if you change or not.
     
  6. RadiantFalcon382

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    Frick, I'm getting hit with the slave urges. I'm not giving in because I'm doing homework, but it is definitely stirring down there. I won't give in. I can't give in.
     
  7. RadiantFalcon382

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    I'm not in big trouble, but I certainly am feeling the urge to erp as a femboy. Luckily I don't know anyone that would do it anymore. I'm trying my best guys!
     
  8. RadiantFalcon382

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    It's hard to focus on my homework atm with these hormones waking up in me, wanting to make me do really dirty things. Why can't I just be normal like all of my friends?
     
  9. RadiantFalcon382

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    Really fricking horny with head full of sexy dominant women.
     
  10. kumarach

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    tbh with you animated porn is worse than real porn....try cutting it altogether,and if u find it hard, switch to normal porn rather than animie....it has so much of graphics that is completely unrealistic and impossible to attain in real life no matter how hard you try,and compared to real life porn..it might just be possible to find a girl who's really hot....i've been there...
     
  11. RadiantFalcon382

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    At this point, I would take a cold shower if I could. I'm so distracted and aroused and I don't wanna relapse. Problem is my parents are asleep.
     
  12. This was just a tad too descriptive, visual not so good imagination for me.
     
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  13. I also have very submissive and masochistic behaviors. I have been someone’s slave before. While I know the struggle and the immediate want -for me— was to have someone to make my decisions for me. That my high lust for sex and gratification was being forced on me, and because of that it wasn’t my fault. They pushed me into it, but at the end of the day its just a want to be objectified for the sake of pretending your porn problems aren’t what they are. That you aren’t in the sad state that you are. That maybe, you don’t have an identity to call your own, and that anyone’s vile fetish you are happy to fulfill, simply because someone wanted you, or because it was so easier to think about their immediate wants instead of trying to figure out your wants or hopes for the future.

    I hope this helps. In theory its good to be submissive, because you aren’t hurting anyone. But really, you are giving yourself hopelessness and depriving yourself of self love, and shirking those that love you. Anyone, and I mean ANYONE who calls themselves a Master isn’t capable of a deep connection, no matter if they say they have experience or are soft or whatever. It’s all a scam, an escapist fantasy.
     
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  14. RadiantFalcon382

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    I’m sorry, I probably should of spoiled it. I couldn’t figure it out.
     
  15. RadiantFalcon382

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    Recently I've been told by a couple of girls that I hang out with that I would look good in several different things, such as fishnets, a skirt, and painted nails. All I did that triggered this was compliment their outfit to which they were happy, yet replied in this way. I don't know exactly how to take this.
     
  16. kumarach

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    avoid contact if possible otherwise reduce interaction, and try developing hobbies.
     
  17. Here's something I wish someone told me when I was younger, there is no such thing as normal, everyone is weird in someway or another. You liking what you like is due to conditioning, or brainwashing, if you never seen it before you wouldn't know about it, and wouldn't like what you never knew in the first place. My advice is detox your entire life.
     
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    You know its funny the other day after i lapsed whilst sitting in misery. I said fuck it. I want to do a girl this bullshit they've done to me. So i played out a fantasy where i was now a dom, and i got a random girl and made her my femdom slave in revere. Commanding her to get on her knees, clean and worship MY feet etc.."

    I just wanted to feel it out. And you know what, it felt so fucking weird. You can probably even try this as an experiment and you will see what i mean. How girls do this shit is beyond me, all acting and pretending to be turned on by this shit, when really its so weird. But for me, and many others, on the recieving end there is a charge to it. It feels good, or addicted, or linked to our arousal template. And this is largely due to porn, childhood etc..

    But i guess it just opened my eyes to see why i have these triggers, drives, etc.. because of what i've been through, and maybe that can help someone see the same thing that, its all conditioning, brainwashing, and hypnosis.

    I've always wondered about post-nut clarity too. Why after you cum, you feel bad and almost like in a dream. Maybe its a conditioned response, and not our authentic selves. And after enough abstinence and re-wiring we can be turned on by real females.

    Unfortunately like OP my fantasies have started to bleed into real life females over the last 2 years. It was never like this before.
     
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  19. WhiteLion

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    If you do not mind me asking, what made you realize that you were worth more than being a slave?
     
  20. jcl1990

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    Well, to start, change your avatar picture to a picture of a man or a tree or something. You are already basing your identity with a female avatar picture. Change your picture
     
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