I want this to end

Hey everyone, I have been on and off this journey for years finding the motivation and then riding it for like a week then relapsing and slowly lose the motivation to continue NoFap, then the cycle restarts a few months later. Porn has been in my life for a long time, my dad was a porn addict and as a kid I have accidentally walked in on him watching porn many times. This got me interested in porn pretty early in my life and would look at soft core stuff as a kid, I didn't watch legit porn until I got my first I pod when I was 12.
After that I didn't do anything to stop and didn't think much of it since I was a horny teen. It wasn't until my junior year that I decided to really try and stop, and that's when the cycle began. Now looking at my life as a 20 y/o, I can say that porn has ruined my life. It has made me less confident in myself, and lately I have had such a short attention span and have struggled to focus. It has also tainted my friendship with girls cause I tend to objectify them cause of how they look. So I have decided to start this journey here in nofap cause my biggest problem with relapsing is not having the proper accountability and I hope that being on a sight with others having the same goal will help.