I don't know why am I posting this. I'm drunk, yes.. I'm sad, yes. I've been an asshole to people for long enough. I can't do it no more. I want to be nicer, I want to be just more of myself. My mom always tells me how I used to be an actually nice kid. Not that I'm not one now, it's just that... I'm an asshole. I want to be done and DONE AGAIN WITH IT! I hate myself for being rude to someone, even if it's just humor. I want to be nice again. I know I can be genuienly nice. Not the nice guy, but a nice human being. I used to be one, so I want to be one again. I feel like I could be like Keanu Reeves, you know. Sounds silly, but I just know I can become one. Please.. Pray for me. I want to be nice again, just an human being full of love, no hate within me. I was an asshole to this girl I really like... She is just such a sweetheart ... And who am I? Just an pathetic asshole. Yes, I'm putting things the way they should be put - I'm taking the real look. I want to be softer, nicer and overall better. Fuck this boyish bullshit. If I have to fight, I will - sure. But I don't want to be rude... Please tell me, how to get it out of me? I want to change really bad! Thank you for reading my drunk post. I feel bad cause I wrote this while drunk and I'm just bothering you guys with stupid bullshit... Sorry. Have a nice day!