I want to feel alive

Ever since I went through a year of depression and horrible panic attacks I feel like I've lost a part of me. I remember I used to be so full of life and purpose and had a burning flame inside me. The flame has died. My emotions are a mere reflection of themselves. I remember what it was like to have these strong emotions but that's all they are..a memory. I believe that all of the porn and fapping and whatever other numbing activities I've done have numbed me. I want so badly to be alive again. I would love some support as I start my journey! Today is day 10. A side note. Any suggestions of what else I can pair with nofap to see enhanced or quicker results? What other things can I do or give up?