I want to get to 30 days without P and am on my way!!!

August 12 was my last M with P. I have gone 12 days without P and now want to get to 30 days! I don't know if I am ready to try this without M....I just don't want to look at P ever again. It is a secret that erodes me, makes me feel less worthy, and affects my confidence as a leader. I don't want that!!!

Masturbation without porn has never had the residual psychological harm that M with P has for me. Perhaps after this current challenge I can reflect on M and perhaps engage with it more proactively. But for now it is time in my life to get rid of porn. Fuck you, porn!!!

I appreciate this forum and pray for you all daily.

 

I am still on track. Have found the urges to compulsively look at porn on my phone and M are getting weaker. This is awesome! I just don't want to trip!!! Been feeling more confident in inter-personal dynamics and faithful/authentic to the communities which I belong. This has been a VERY good thing and I am so grateful. So it continues. Be well, all!