Telling you that I am having a bad day would be an huge understatement. I am depressed, I am anxious and I am freaking out so much that my heart rate is elevated.it is fucking frustrating! I was supposed to go for an interview on Tuesday but I am so scared of the Hr interview that I am stalling it ever since. Daily I am coming up with excuses of why I didn't go today.. this has been my life for the last 4 days. Today I am losing it. I am filled with guilt and my mind is still thinking of a reason why I can't go tomorrow(Monday). I feel this pressure in my head , it feels like its going to explode.I don't know how long I can resist the urge to escape into the virtual. I just started this challenge 3 weeks ago and right now I am on a streak of 12 days. I am ashamed to say that I did click on a porn website but when the web-page loaded I saw violence towards a girl , something in me just snapped and I closed off that tab. I realized that I needed help to keep up my resistance.. so I am posting this now. I don't know what specificity I should ask for and what kind of help I need , so I am just gonna say this. PLEASE HELLP!