I want to kill myself

There's no tomorrow.
There's only eternal NOW.

Listen to some Alan Watts lectures !

Also: try L-theanine , L-tryptophan and eventually L-tyrosine.

NATURAL AND SAFE AMINO ACIDS THAT HELP WITH DEPRESSION.

if youre smoking, eating sweets or alcohol or weed- cut it all out.

start doing cold showers instead.


find the f.n source of your issues, it might be chemical in your brain, your diet, your enviroment. or one can influence the other.

find it and change it.


my father commited suicide dude.
he did not changed anything. he only prolonged our suffering as a family, my own suffering that I need to cope on with the rest of my life,
and his own - as he solved nothing.

so stay strong, and if youre going through hell just keep going.

 

you keep thinking about it - and it fuels it in your mind.
just refocus your thinking.

if you keep thinking about something, be it desiring something or fearing it - it will grow. thats the law of attraction.

treat it like a porn addiction. just stay away.

how old are you btw?

look how many people posted here.
we spent time in our life to write all those posts.
this means we had similar experiences in the past.
we do know and we do care.

I know how it feels man.
I wanted to kill myself when I was 21 and my toxic gf betrayed me.

I wanted to kill myself because of her how stupid I was hahaha


but then I slowly realized how my low self worth wasnt helping me.
we all die eventually, so why not just stop giving a fuck and live a life for myself

wish you all the best

but you must stop expecting problems to solve themselves, or others solving it for you.
stop saying ''why this doesnt work'' because youre expecting instant success.
calm down, get back on your center.

meditate.

just type in google ''guided vipassana meditation'' or ''guided zen meditation''

take it easy. ONE STEP at a TIME.

 

Are you still there?

 

youd be fine. take it day by day.

 

I tend to have a day every now and again as of late it gets so bad usually right after a binge the day after where I have thoughts of throwing myself off a nearby bridge but I don't want to hurt my family and that kind of just makes me think about it not do it I think

 

I know I told you all this already, but if you will merely continue to build the reboot,
hard mode, 90 day,
you will feel better by the end, things will be better, I promise.
Don't give up.
Do the full 90.

 

really bad choice, you would ruin the lives of your relatives to ease your suffering?

Start thinking for others. I mean , if you have no purpose , no faith in future, even if you could improve a single person's day, it would be a great reason to live .
Everybody can do it , everyone can volunteer , everyone can give donate himself to a cause

The truth is that you need help. Stop self-talking. You should talk about your suicide ideation with your parents.
And than to a psychotherapist.
Keeping it all inside is too simple, you avoid judgment for an easy an escape.
Maturity lies in showing weaknesses and asking for help, after growth comes redemption.
how much would you give to get out? take this step

 

Hello Gjey,

I’m sorry to hear that you are struggling. Rebooting has its ups and downs, just like life. We see many people experiencing both the ups and downs during the reboot, and though it may be hard to see now, these feelings you are having won’t last forever. It will get better with time, if you are patient and wait.

In the meantime, please seek professional help. I know the idea of calling a helpline might terrify you, but in times of crisis, we often need someone their to put our lives in perspective. So please contact someone who can help and don’t hang up on them. The International Association for Suicide Prevention maintains a list of suicide prevention hotlines for countries all over the world. Also, if you don’t feel up to actually talking to someone on the phone, StopSuicide maintains a list of online instant messaging and chat suicide prevention resources.

You are not alone in this. There are ways to treat depression. Please contact people that can help you. Being depressed often makes it feel like you don’t have any more options. But that is a lie. That is just the depression talking. These feelings you have won’t last forever. We are in this with you, and we will all be cheering for you to get through this!

 

I think you don't understand the consequences.
Ask your father what he would do if you got it over with.

plus you urgently need a psychotherapist, you do more effort to ask for help than to commit suicide.
you would ruin your father's existence for to run away forever?

 

You think they're just gonna be like " Oh damn, I guess he had his problems" ?

Hell nah, they'll tumble down an endless staircase of guilt trying to recall what it is that they did wrong. It'll also ruin them, Imagine your son killing himself, how would others look at you? You clearly weren't a supportive enough parent. Imagine how the atmosphere would be at your funeral?

 

i get depressed like you to , i use to play the accoustic, i use to write songs when i felt depressed, but the songs were more like heavy metal type songs i dont play the electric guitar, i took on line lessons, guitartricks.com, its great, depression seems to push us to be greater then just being good enough,