I want to separate myself from society as much as possible, starting with the internet.

Until I recently joined this forum and abstained from porn (but not masturbation) for the last three days, I had been locked into a vicious cycle after losing my job two weeks ago. I would make plans to do things, then I would end up spending most of the day eating, watching YouTube videos, and jerking off to porn.

But now, I not only have no interest in porn, but I don't have any interest in watching YouTube videos. And I don't have any interest in social media. I don't even have an interest in self-help videos because there's so many, and they just add to the confusion.

I really just want to cut myself off from the internet as much as possible, isolate myself from hearing about the rest of the world so much, it really just makes me feel overwhelmed, left out, and far behind in life, and makes me feel vengeful.

The only catch is, I still need the internet to, well, socialize on here, to build a social life via online games, and continue my Computer Science studies and practices.

So, I just want to know, where do I go from here?

From what I can tell, eating only one meal a day, cycling until I lose enough weight to start doing calisthenics is a good move, self-authoring, writing, coding, and meditating are all good starts, but it's almost like I have a whole mental complex that I need to remove that makes doing anything feel like walking through quicksand.

How do I reset my mind completely? How do I teach myself to control my awareness and re-tool my mind? It's overwhelming.

Also, a video once told me that wealthy and successful people are wealthy and successful because they create things for people, instead of selling themselves for someone else.

So what I am trying to decide, is how does programming, cybersecurity, and robotics play into a nomadic lifestyle? My desire to write songs and stories, and learn how to play the guitar, that's obvious. But my CS pursuits?

 

It's been a dream of mine to hike the Appalachian trail. And just disappear all together, I think living off the grid would be awesome, until reality kicked in.

No shower. I have really bad OCD and being dirty would drive me insane
The No's don't stop there

No Coffee for starters. I don't even want to to think beyond that

If you recently lost your job, get back in the game as soon as you can. Even if it's getting up and just applying. When I've been unemployed in the past I used to do day labor places, to keep myself moving and not stay stagnant

I think trying to be nomadic and doing all those things would be hard because well, you need to be in a community that has resources for you to access those things. But if you can find a commune type of a community, it may be possible. The problem there is you have to deal with people who live on the fringe, may be a little wacko, etc.

I think you're looking to hardly at others success. I don't really think you can measure success. Sure, you can measure it with money but you know the old saying, "Do what you love and you'll never work a day in your life" So, make a way if you can't find one. Inspiration is cool, but at the end of the day you want to be happy

I don't think anybody can tell you to do X, Y and Z and you'll find your way. Let the answer come to you

I'm sorry about your Job. That sucks, I've been there before and know exactly what that is like. I wish I could be a nomad, but I like too many creature comforts.

Good luck to you

 

Thank you.

I'm really starting to think temp agencies are the devil and those are the results I got when googling "day labor places", but is day labor different?

 

Yes they are. If you think about it, it's all the motivation you need to find a good job.

I broke my back for a while, being a handyman. Painting apartment complexes, yardwork etc at day labor places

But you know what? Kept my butt motivated to find a full-time Job, but more importantly, keeps you in a rythme

 

Well, I will say this:

When I think of the idea of going nomad or working for a camp in Summer 2020, it makes me think of things like this: I have about approximately six months to:

• Save up as much money as possible (At least $1,000)
• Learn the basics of Linux and computer networking
• Get an operational bike and camping gear
• Lose 10 lbs

It really helps narrow down and focus what I want to achieve in the short-term.

In the long-term, learning large groups of skills is necessary to get a great long-term job, but learning ANY kind of valuable skill in the short-term can help with survival and success six months from now. ANYTHING that can make me more useful and capable can help me survive and make me more appealing.

 

Oh hey Hold it in. You said you wanted to hike the Appalachian Trail.

I actually once met and worked with a girl who hiked that trail some time ago with a group of friends of hers. Some freckled redhead we called, "Beans". I can't remember her real name.

She was adventurous, and has been lots of places by herself, including India, and she's only 21, or I think 22.

So what I'm saying is, even if you can't live off-grid, I'm sure you can hike the Appalachian trail. And there's ways to stay some-what fresh on the trail, kind of...But you can definitely make coffee on the trail.

Coffee has always been a gamble for me for some reason.

 

Well my time in Colorado was one of the better times of my life.