Me and my fiance have been in a relationship for 5 years and he's the most wonderful man I met. About 3 months ago I found out that he has been addicted to pornography for 10 years. I have him my support and it was going good for a while but then I stared questioning him, not letting him take showers, getting angry and saying things to hurt him, asking why he doesn't like me anymore. I was so stupid and i've hurt him more than his addiction could ever hurt me. I wasn't understanding that he wouls get upet and angry because he felt shame and embarassment around me, that he cares deeply for my but I was so focused on my own pain that I was leavig him behind. He needed me and I wasn't there for him, he needed my love and I was selfish. I've never felt like a bigger idiot and I hope that if anyone reads this they will not make the mistakes I did. I made it personal when it wasn't about me at all. He has many dark sides but he also has an amazing and sensitive heart. He has a deep depression which worsens the addiction, he has anger problems which come out when he feels embarrassed, or shameful, when he loses at video games in front of me, any time where he is not his best around me he becomes extremely angry, and all of these things seem to make quitting the addiction even worse. I have made such huge mistakes in our relashionship and I fear I will never be able to make up for the unforgivable things that I've done. I will continue to love him always and I will keep thought of him in my heart.